I am such an embarrassment to my parents.

[Unhirable]

Anytime I go outside and am seen by neighbors, I feel intense shame.

I am ugly and a failure, objectively, and I hate knowing that my parents' (who are good people) are cursed with having an unsuccessful loser as a son.

It hurts me even more when they try to comfort me because I know I am a failure and their life and love was wasted on me.

 

[Lifeaballache]

I feel exactly the same! My parents are good people and I just keep bringing shame on my family. This is exactly why I want to CBT so I can protect my parents against the shit storm thats coming if I don't CBT soon

 

[Julgran]

Anytime I go outside and am seen by neighbors, I feel intense shame.

I am ugly and a failure, objectively, and I hate knowing that my parents' (who are good people) are cursed with having an unsuccessful loser as a son.

It hurts me even more when they try to comfort me because I know I am a failure and their life and love was wasted on me.

Some people are ugly on the outside, while others are ugly on the inside

 

[Death is my goal]

i resonate with this... it feels awful.. tho my parents did the opposite, they tell me straight up that i'm a failure and a shame and always compare me to others. but i still love them.

 

[Pluto]

As someone who has worked with young people, I would be a bit skeptical of this narrative.

If I had children, I would not raise them to believe that their purpose in life is to bring prestige to me. They would also know that true success is practically impossible to define, and true love is unconditional. Presumably they wouldn't end up on this website.

 

[Raskolnikov's Axe]

That's my reality, and I used to feel that way as well until I reaffirmed within myself that I am only here because of them and that they wanted to bring new consciousness into this world. I wasn't asked a god damned thing. Now bear the shame of having a failure such as me as your offspring, ppls. I'm sorry.

 

[theboy]

You feel you are a disgrace but you are not

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I doubt they feel you are an embarrassment to them. Parent's love is unconditional. We can be our own worst critic.

 

[ikadasui]

Same. Mother had to bail my pathetic ass out on rent this month and now I couldn't feel more like a disgrace, but I also have no backbone or will to change. it's purgatory being alive and knowing you are an active drain but too much of a bitch to fix any of it

 

[UpsideDownFace]

I can relate so much, my parents had high hopes for me since my older sibling turned out to be a disappointment with mental issues...and I turned out the same

 

[LeavingEarly]

My dad was a firefighter and my mom was stay at home mom. Both did excellent jobs raising me but I just turned out to be mentally ill loser.