I am starting to hate this website

[HowToCTB]

Seriously. I have been browsing for more than a week hoping to get more and more info, and while I eventually got it, I still don't have sources.
I don't want to waste money or enrich scammers. I am spending my days in anxiety trying to find a website that convinces me but how can I ever trust a website that sells stuff they shouldn't sell, without someone who actually got it confirms it?

I need SOURCES. I know where to get my SN. They ask for an ID (Europe) for some reason, but I can get it.
It's the rest. In the book from EI I have got a list of anti emetics and B blockers but I don't know where to get them from. I need them in a couple of weeks.

I read in another thread that a guy wouldn't send sources unless the user had written 40 posts. Are we crazy?? I want to ctb, not spending my time writing.
I could even get the job done myself, but I really don't want to be scammed.

How can I advance quickly in making myself trustworthy QUICKLY?
I don't have much time, thinking of doing it in about 2 weeks and I don't want to die in my country but before having to come back

 

[rainwillneverstop]

People are generally protective over sources for a good reason, as bad actors exist who will try to shut down these sources.
Therefor it's not often given to people who joined within a week.
Furthermore, ctb is a big decision to make and itll be your final so rushing it is generally not a good idea.

If you hate the site still, you're free to leave.

 

[razahcareca27]

you'll be getting closer to getting sources exposing yourself like you did in this post. can't really give you any tip other than that. people who can do it may do it if you can get to them or vice-versa. good luck with that.

and remember that with SN method the essential thing is the sn itself. ofc you might prefer having meds, but unfortunately or not everyone who contemplates ctb will need to advance on this plan with what they have in hand. good luck with that as well, I hope you can get closer to what you seek.

 

[litekiller11]

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[let.me.let.go87]

I'm new too and desperately trying to ctb but I understand why people protect themselves here. So man anti-suiciders have already had this site shut down at least once. And sources get arrested easily. The "prolifers" will do anything to make it harder for us to make our own decisions. So people have to be responsible with what they share here. Very responsible. If that's not okay with you, don't let the door hit ya on the way out… ijs. I'm willing to bide my time and/or do what I have to do to ctb without exposing anyone else

 

[Deleted member 8119]

a website that sells stuff they shouldn't sell

If someone offered you to buy anything, they're breaking the rules. This site sells nothing, and has strong rules against sellers here. If that's the case, please report them.

 

[HowToCTB]

People are generally protective over sources for a good reason, as bad actors exist who will try to shut down these sources.
Therefor it's not often given to people who joined within a week.
Furthermore, ctb is a big decision to make and itll be your final so rushing it is generally not a good idea.

If you hate the site still, you're free to leave.

I was expecting such answer.
The funny thing is that I am trying to leave, and not only from the website, but from life.
Sorry if that was unclear

 

[HowToCTB]

I'm new too and desperately trying to ctb but I understand why people protect themselves here. So man anti-suiciders have already had this site shut down at least once. And sources get arrested easily. The "prolifers" will do anything to make it harder for us to make our own decisions. So people have to be responsible with what they share here. Very responsible. If that's not okay with you, don't let the door hit ya on the way out… ijs. I'm willing to bide my time and/or do what I have to do to ctb without exposing anyone else

I hate prolifers as well.
They pretend to be so wise, yet they are so apathetic, and don't realize that they're condemning people to living, against their will.
In Italy they banned it. That's just bu##s##t, use a VPN and that's it. The funny thing is that newspapers portray it as a heroic act, when it's actually so stupid, and not that effective either...

I get the protecting thing. It just makes me feel frustrated that even to get resources to die I have to struggle that much... I guess I'll just accept it

 

[HowToCTB]

If someone offered you to buy anything, they're breaking the rules. This site sells nothing, and has strong rules against sellers here. If that's the case, please report them.

It's unfair that some people actually get sources and many other can't.

 

[let.me.let.go87]

I hate prolifers as well.
They pretend to be so wise, yet they are so apathetic, and don't realize that they're condemning people to living, against their will.
In Italy they banned it. That's just bu##s##t, use a VPN and that's it. The funny thing is that newspapers portray it as a heroic act, when it's actually so stupid, and not that effective either...

I get the protecting thing. It just makes me feel frustrated that even to get resources to die I have to struggle that much... I guess I'll just accept it

We don't have much choice. At least for now. Download an untraceable browser and research methods for the time being. Maybe you'll luck out and find something and now hafta wait I've been consistently researching methods on DuckDuckGo. No vpn involved (so no trouble with Italian law!!) it clears all your browser history on exit and you are free to research whatever you need to

 

[AmericanMary]

I have found that community engagement is the answer to finding sources. Building rapport with other members of the website.

 

[fussyohno]

Find that this forum is obsessed with SN as the only way out and majority of threads are about it. Personally giving serious consideration to inert gas / exit bag, and not sure why this method isn't more popular.

Anyway I also share your frustrations re sources and like you I would be in the same position...

 

[Traveller12724]

I find it interesting that you are starting to hate the only place on the internet that's actually trying to help us all share and carefully plan without asking us for anything in return. If you don't wanna do what everybody has to do to get sources, then by all means good luck finding another site that makes it easy but you only have yourself to blame in this case and your impatience.

 

[astr4]

you also do have options that aren't sn! so you can see why your urgency for someone to reveal a source comes off as suspect, no?

 

[opheliaoveragain]

I find it interesting that you are starting to hate the only place on the internet that's actually trying to help us all share and carefully plan without asking us for anything in return. If you don't wanna do what everybody has to do to get sources, then by all means good luck finding another site that makes it easy but you only have yourself to blame in this case and your impatience.

Came here to express this. It's one of the most CARE-fully (as in, with actual care) space like this that exists as it is on the clear web. If you find that it no longer serves you, there's a whole internet out there.

 

[Kali_Yuga13]

Find that this forum is obsessed with SN as the only way out and majority of threads are about it. Personally giving serious consideration to inert gas / exit bag, and not sure why this method isn't more popular.

Anyway I also share your frustrations re sources and like you I would be in the same position...

Yeah the SN has become a fixation even I can get pulled into if I dwell on it. If I approach the subject rationally and ask myself what I would do if I had no resources and needed to ctb in as short a time possible, I know there are methods. A correctly done partial hanging or night-night only takes a few minutes and combining them with a bag or drugs would further insure against survival.

Urgent requests for sources sets off red flags in people. Desperate people do irrational things and no one want's to be the bag holder for enabling someone's reckless behavior nor we want this space to be jeopardized.

 

[Nephy]

I really can relate your rant, cause we all found this site in a very difficult time in our life and the site gives hope and then you realize .. you are living in the wrong country (cause in Europe it's so hard to get anything) and it seems like nobody want to help you. But yes of course I also understand why the users have to be careful with sharing links. Anyway I'm glad to found this page ..even if I won't get any SN resources here

 

[HowToCTB]

Find that this forum is obsessed with SN as the only way out and majority of threads are about it. Personally giving serious consideration to inert gas / exit bag, and not sure why this method isn't more popular.

Anyway I also share your frustrations re sources and like you I would be in the same position...

I would consider the bag option if it didn't require some technical skill. For example the helium method on the PPeH (or is it the same thing).

I think that people like SN because it's a chemical substance, just like N...

 

[yabujin]

Same bc there's not much freedom on here like on .is but I'm more fit here than on .is due to their filters and bc I attempted suicide already.
I'm even banned on neets and lots of other sites
Always due to beefing with someone

 

[Aimiya]

"How can i make myself trustworthy quickly" will have the opposite effect

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Don't take your anger out on this site, instead take your anger out on this pro life, pro suffering society that we live in

 

[goblinofisiyal11]

Don't take your anger out on this site, instead take your anger out on this pro life, pro suffering society that we live in

That's the thing, we're the ones who are powerless (or at least I am) against these pro-lifers who obviously are pro-life cause they either enjoy their life so much which means they have power or they have some other dogma that they can't shake off for whatever reason there is. But at least some people (such as the site admins of SaSu) have enough power that they can build and run a site for those with less power.

Same bc there's not much freedom on here like on .is but I'm more fit here than on .is due to their filters and bc I attempted suicide already.
I'm even banned on neets and lots of other sites
Always due to beefing with someone

What is the " .is " website? Incels? But yeah I can relate. I'm autistic (or at least I think so), either have ADHD or OCD, but most importantly raised as a selfish hedonist who does not see the reason in being compassionate to others for no personal gain, and it is this selfishness which has led me to want to proceed with death, and also why I have become a pariah in almost every forum I have participated in, why I have never had any friends except for one who I abandoned, and why now I continue to have no friends. Which is why you won't see me going to threads and typing heartfelt comments to people cause I can only force myself to do so as it doesn't come naturally to me.

"How can i make myself trustworthy quickly" will have the opposite effect

Ditto what I just said above. It kind of sucks that on the forum meant to be the final frontier before death there are still social rules and norms that favour people with certain traits over others to rank up and gain exclusive benefits. But that's just how life works I guess, if this place were an absolute paradise there would be no reason why everywhere else in the world isn't also an absolute paradise.

 

[maniac116]

If you do a lot of posts you'll get PMs unlocked for your account.
Then it may be much easier to find sources.
But if you diligently look thru the megathreads you'll get enough info to piece together where to get what you're looking for

 

[leavingsoonx]

Seriously. I have been browsing for more than a week hoping to get more and more info, and while I eventually got it, I still don't have sources.
I don't want to waste money or enrich scammers. I am spending my days in anxiety trying to find a website that convinces me but how can I ever trust a website that sells stuff they shouldn't sell, without someone who actually got it confirms it?

I need SOURCES. I know where to get my SN. They ask for an ID (Europe) for some reason, but I can get it.
It's the rest. In the book from EI I have got a list of anti emetics and B blockers but I don't know where to get them from. I need them in a couple of weeks.

I read in another thread that a guy wouldn't send sources unless the user had written 40 posts. Are we crazy?? I want to ctb, not spending my time writing.
I could even get the job done myself, but I really don't want to be scammed.

How can I advance quickly in making myself trustworthy QUICKLY?
I don't have much time, thinking of doing it in about 2 weeks and I don't want to die in my country but before having to come back

I feel you, people are rude and there's clearly a bunch of people on here who just wanna make someone kill themselves. I made a post and I searched this site like crazy for sources and was told it's actually easy to find sources. Nothing more than trolls who are so pathetic they have to pick on suicidal people and make em feel worse

Cheers to the whole world being a piece of shit

 

[Kadaver]

Seriously. I have been browsing for more than a week hoping to get more and more info, and while I eventually got it, I still don't have sources.
I don't want to waste money or enrich scammers. I am spending my days in anxiety trying to find a website that convinces me but how can I ever trust a website that sells stuff they shouldn't sell, without someone who actually got it confirms it?

I need SOURCES. I know where to get my SN. They ask for an ID (Europe) for some reason, but I can get it.
It's the rest. In the book from EI I have got a list of anti emetics and B blockers but I don't know where to get them from. I need them in a couple of weeks.

I read in another thread that a guy wouldn't send sources unless the user had written 40 posts. Are we crazy?? I want to ctb, not spending my time writing.
I could even get the job done myself, but I really don't want to be scammed.

How can I advance quickly in making myself trustworthy QUICKLY?
I don't have much time, thinking of doing it in about 2 weeks and I don't want to die in my country but before having to come back

I don't really feel comfortable handing out a direct link, but I can give you hints

Use a browser that starts with Y but isn't Yahoo.
It's not the top result, but searching for Sodium nitrite should have it pop up. You might have to dig through a few pages, but DMC is there. I got my SN from them and it actually came really quickly (but my roommate found it )

 

[ijustwishtodie]

That's the thing, we're the ones who are powerless (or at least I am) against these pro-lifers who obviously are pro-life cause they either enjoy their life so much which means they have power or they have some other dogma that they can't shake off for whatever reason there is. But at least some people (such as the site admins of SaSu) have enough power that they can build and run a site for those with less power.

I get what you mean but, at the end of the day, even this site doesn't have a lot of power itself either. All it takes is one wrong move and this site could get banned. There are pro lifers everyday who want and try to get this place banned because they would rather have us suffer than die peacefully. The reason why this site has survived for so long is because of how careful they are. Additionally, the same logic applies to SN sources too as there are pro lifers who are looking for these SN sources to try and arrest the people who are selling SN to individuals as, once again, we live in a pro suffering society. This site nor the people who sell SN to individuals have a lot of power compared to the pro lifers since the amount of pro lifers is just insane

 

[amerie]

Perhaps you should try to look for another method? I saw a good thread on here about partial hanging where you can die really quickly, want me to link it? Idk if you already saw it.

 

[maniac116]

I find it interesting that you are starting to hate the only place on the internet that's actually trying to help us all share and carefully plan without asking us for anything in return. If you don't wanna do what everybody has to do to get sources, then by all means good luck finding another site that makes it easy but you only have yourself to blame in this case and your impatience.

I couldn't agree more. Well said!