I have wanted to CTB since I was a child, fast forward to my late teenage years and I met someone and for the first time in my life I felt like I had a future. I was going to marry that girl, I was going to have kids with her, she was my sole reason for both living and for my happiness. She left me about a month ago, and I have been through a wave of emotions. I have been going to therapy, exercising, taking care of myself, I got a new job and I'm taking more classes this semester. I'm in therapy and taking meds, and yet I still feel like everything is pointless and the pain of losing her will not leave my mind. The only happy part of me I have ever known died when she broke up with me. I tried to CTB a week after the breakup but someone found me and forced me to go to the hospital unfortunately. Idk, I'm sorry for this mess of a post, I'm on mobile and this is my first time using the site. I just feel like everything is so pointless without her in my life. I just want this pain to stop.
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I appreciate it. Its just hard because its like, I'm still in the headspace of I don't want anyone else ya know. I just dont know how to comprehend a life without her in it ya know.It happens. Breakups suck ass. But you just gotta put yourself back on the market. I know the current dating scene is ass. But I believe in you man
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- Jul 7, 2026
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You don't need to feel sorry for this post, we are here to listen to whatever you want to share <3. I'm sorry you're feeling so awful about this breakup, I know it can be so horribly painful to lose someone you wanted to spend the rest of your life with. I don't want to diminish the pain you're feeling, but this sort of pain is very acute and usually lessens over time. I believe that your girlfriend was special and that you had a real relationship with her, but it sounds like you sort of built her up into an idol. She is special, but she isn't unique in that she is the only girl you could ever love, or who could ever love you. Sorry for being harsh, but this is the sort of thing it's good to internalize after a breakup. It sounds like you are doing well by exercising, working, and going to therapy. Keep doing these things and eventually I am sure the pain will start to lessen and the idea of living without her will be much easier to bear. We are here for you and we care about you, although we are all strangers. God bless <3Similar threads
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