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RandomName12345

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Aug 14, 2026
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I have wanted to CTB since I was a child, fast forward to my late teenage years and I met someone and for the first time in my life I felt like I had a future. I was going to marry that girl, I was going to have kids with her, she was my sole reason for both living and for my happiness. She left me about a month ago, and I have been through a wave of emotions. I have been going to therapy, exercising, taking care of myself, I got a new job and I'm taking more classes this semester. I'm in therapy and taking meds, and yet I still feel like everything is pointless and the pain of losing her will not leave my mind. The only happy part of me I have ever known died when she broke up with me. I tried to CTB a week after the breakup but someone found me and forced me to go to the hospital unfortunately. Idk, I'm sorry for this mess of a post, I'm on mobile and this is my first time using the site. I just feel like everything is so pointless without her in my life. I just want this pain to stop.
 
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plskilme

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Jul 8, 2026
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It happens. Breakups suck ass. But you just gotta put yourself back on the market. I know the current dating scene is ass. But I believe in you man 🙏
 
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