I am in the final years of my life

[FireFox]

I turn 25 years old on Friday and all I feel is absolute disappointment in how my life turned out to be. I am a loser with no real achievements and failed to be a mature functional adult. I do not have drivers license and learning how to drive, I don't know how utilities bills work because I live with my mother who provides, and I do not know anything anymore. I look at people like Nadia whittome who is the UK'S youngest MP and I feel like a failure. She is 25 years old or look at people my age getting married, having carers and all I feel is a failure. A total failure. I had a job which ended after my employer couldnt afford to keep me. Its so embarrassing that I don't have career like everyone else and just failed to have it together. In real world nobody understands or even cares.

I really wanted to live,have a life doing something meaningful and having a man love me but none of that is ever going to happen for me it's the truth. To live this world you have to be strong, smart and fit in and I am none of those things. When it comes to relationships no matter what I am always going to be that rejected unpopular teenage girl that I was at school that is how I feel deep down. The worst rejection experienced was when I thought this guy at school was different but he was like everyone else in the school who thought I was werid and he humiliated me in front of the entire school. In adulthood guys still reject me

When I turn 30 I am going to kill myself because I do not want to go through another decade anymore and everything is just mess. I am tired of living. My birthday is the worst day of my life.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that things are so hopeless. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are suffering so much. I also do not want to exist for another decade, to me it is horrifying the thought of having to live this life for many more years. I think that the life expectancy is too long. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

 

[Superdeterminist]

People who enjoy celebrating their birthdays past like, 30 are weird to me. Coming of age ok sure, you're rising up to a certain biological peak like a flower blooming, maybe that's something to celebrate. But after 30 or thereabouts, it's just downhill biologically speaking, there's no way I would ever want to celebrate getting closer to being a frail geriatric raisin. I can understand using one's birthday as an excuse to throw some kind of party. But NOT celebration of the actual progression of time.

 

[Istanbulite]

you are sooo young though

Even if you are destined to commit suicide, enjoy it to the fullest, dear

 

[Al_stargate]

Well, you still have 5 years until the date you set up, so things might change. I think it's good you're giving yourself more opportunities. The most one can do is to try.

 

[Spiritual survivor]

Did u ever see the video by Aaron Clarey on YouTube? It's called don't try till you're 35 lol! Please watch that video b4 u give up at such a young age. You're literally a baby still. An adolescent.

 

[Superdeterminist]

Did u ever see the video by Aaron Clarey on YouTube? It's called don't try till you're 35 lol! Please watch that video b4 u give up at such a young age. You're literally a baby still. An adolescent.

Personally, I think waiting around for so long is too tall an order, especially when happiness is not promised, it's only a "maybe" that people can ever give you, which for me isn't good enough. IMO, life should not be about biding years of your precious time for a hope that it might one day improve. This is also just one guy's wild theory and I don't know what evidence he has to really support it . Also, personally I think that success in older age isn't as valuable as success in youth. If I only found happiness in later life, I think I would have a lingering resentment over having had to wait so long for it.

 

[NothingElseMatters]

5 years sounds like a lot. good luck.

 

[Hurt]

Same here. I would be very surprised if I'm still alive in 3 years or so.

 

[Pain In The Ass]

I turn 25 years old on Friday and all I feel is absolute disappointment in how my life turned out to be. I am a loser with no real achievements and failed to be a mature functional adult. I do not have drivers license and learning how to drive, I don't know how utilities bills work because I live with my mother who provides, and I do not know anything anymore. I look at people like Nadia whittome who is the UK'S youngest MP and I feel like a failure. She is 25 years old or look at people my age getting married, having carers and all I feel is a failure. A total failure. I had a job which ended after my employer couldnt afford to keep me. Its so embarrassing that I don't have career like everyone else and just failed to have it together. In real world nobody understands or even cares.

I really wanted to live,have a life doing something meaningful and having a man love me but none of that is ever going to happen for me it's the truth. To live this world you have to be strong, smart and fit in and I am none of those things. When it comes to relationships no matter what I am always going to be that rejected unpopular teenage girl that I was at school that is how I feel deep down. The worst rejection experienced was when I thought this guy at school was different but he was like everyone else in the school who thought I was werid and he humiliated me in front of the entire school. In adulthood guys still reject me

When I turn 30 I am going to kill myself because I do not want to go through another decade anymore and everything is just mess. I am tired of living. My birthday is the worst day of my life.

Try 40 mate - THAT really sends you into a spiral of despair - THEN find someone who was born 40 years before you, who's now 80, and is happy with how their life has gone, and is still going! And to top it all off, she's so beautiful I'd cut off a finger just to know her...

 

[FireFox]

People who enjoy celebrating their birthdays past like, 30 are weird to me. Coming of age ok sure, you're rising up to a certain biological peak like a flower blooming, maybe that's something to celebrate. But after 30 or thereabouts, it's just downhill biologically speaking, there's no way I would ever want to celebrate getting closer to being a frail geriatric raisin. I can understand using one's birthday as an excuse to throw some kind of party. But NOT celebration of the actual progression of time.

@Hidden Base

Today I am now 25 years old and I just want this day to end. I am pretending to be happy for those around me but really I want to die.

you are sooo young though

Even if you are destined to commit suicide, enjoy it to the fullest, dear

@Istanbulite

I absoultely love the Mads Mikkelsen profile picture. I loved watching Mads mikkelsen in another round, he made me laugh so much along with the actors playing his friends. I am trying to enjoy life before I tried.

I don't feel young anymore and I feel like I have f*cked everything up. I can't cope anymore with these overwhelming feelings of disappointment and failure. 25 years with nothing to show for it.

 

[motel rooms]

there's no way I would ever want to celebrate getting closer to being a frail geriatric raisin.

Always the pessimist... Think of it as getting closer to being a corpse.

 

[FireFox]

Did u ever see the video by Aaron Clarey on YouTube? It's called don't try till you're 35 lol! Please watch that video b4 u give up at such a young age. You're literally a baby still. An adolescent.

@Failedlife

I turned 25 years old today and I am tired of living. This is the worst day ever how I can celebrate my birthday when there is nothing to celebrate. I am a loser and I failed to have it all together. As a teenager I thought at 25 years old I will be living in my own apartment independently, in a stable career/job, a man who loved me and doing something meaningful with my life. No everything is a mess and nothing is perfect.

- I am immature for my age everyone else is mature and I am not.

- I am an adult virgin and I feel like a total freak, it is so embrassing. Its loneliness and confusion because I know nothing about sex and relationships whereas everyone else does and I can't express my lack of knowledge about relationships with anyone. Anything about sex and relationships I have to read myself from women's magazines, TV programmes etc

I feel like the odd one out amoung women my age especially seeing women my age get married or have relationship. I always feel like that unpopular teenage girl who had to see her friends have sexual relationships whereas no boy at school liked me. I feel like I never grew up properly and my virginity is a physical reminder of my own immaturity.

I used to be motivated now I have no direction anymore

Personally, I think waiting around for so long is too tall an order, especially when happiness is not promised, it's only a "maybe" that people can ever give you, which for me isn't good enough. IMO, life should not be about biding years of your precious time for a hope that it might one day improve. This is also just one guy's wild theory and I don't know what evidence he has to really support it . Also, personally I think that success in older age isn't as valuable as success in youth. If I only found happiness in later life, I think I would have a lingering resentment over having had to wait so long for it.

@Hidden Base

I really wanted to live and enjoy but I just didn't know how. I reached out in the real world but nobody really listened and dismissed everything I said. If I was taught how to live I would be alive but nobody showed me how. I am not strong for this world .