I am going to drown myself by the end of January.

[zulcywulcy]

Ive seen multiple videos of people drowning to death and most of the deaths were in public places with many people there. I plan on doing this at a lake at night where nobody will be around, it's going to be so easy i cant wait to go through with this and leave this shit hole called earth (:

 

[Worndown]

Are you swimming out from shore of jumping off a pier or bridge?

 

[zulcywulcy]

Are you swimming out from shore of jumping off a pier or bridge?

pier

pier

i cant swim either

 

[Worndown]

Ok. Both of those are good choices.

 

[zulcywulcy]

Ok. Both of those are good choices.

also will be wearing a backpack with weights to make it even easier

 

[Worndown]

Plus it is cold.
That makes 4 positives. It should go well.
Find a way to tie the shoulder straps together over your chest just in case SI does not want to go for a swim.

 

[DisillusionedDruid]

Ive seen multiple videos of people drowning to death and most of the deaths were in public places with many people there. I plan on doing this at a lake at night where nobody will be around, it's going to be so easy i cant wait to go through with this and leave this shit hole called earth (:

Hey. If you are still alive, I admire anyone who knows how they're gonna do it. Naturally, with all on here, I never want to see anyone die. I always hope they'll find a way out and heal. But, for many that's not the case and won't be the case. So freedom via suicide, is another way out. I wish freedom, either healing or death happens for all.

Drowning scares the shit outta me, so I admire your courage. Weights are good idea. It'll make it quite quick, I feel. Good luck with whatever you decide to do. May you be at peace either way

 

[zulcywulcy]

Hey. If you are still alive, I admire anyone who knows how they're gonna do it. Naturally, with all on here, I never want to see anyone die. I always hope they'll find a way out and heal. But, for many that's not the case and won't be the case. So freedom via suicide, is another way out. I wish freedom, either healing or death happens for all.

Drowning scares the shit outta me, so I admire your courage. Weights are good idea. It'll make it quite quick, I feel. Good luck with whatever you decide to do. May you be at peace either way

thank you <3

Plus it is cold.
That makes 4 positives. It should go well.
Find a way to tie the shoulder straps together over your chest just in case SI does not want to go for a swim.

Alright, ill do that, thanks for the help btw your making me more comfortable going into this

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find the freedom you search for, I understand just wishing to be gone, to never suffer ever again in this cruel existence is all I personally wish for.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Is it really easy? I want to drown myself but, in my case, I'm so scared of the idea of somebody potentially seeing me and then resuscitating me against my will. If I knew for sure that I wouldn't get resuscitated during my attempt, I would have drowned myself already. Anyways, I hope you find peace soon, best of luck

 

[zulcywulcy]

Is it really easy? I want to drown myself but, in my case, I'm so scared of the idea of somebody potentially seeing me and then resuscitating me against my will. If I knew for sure that I wouldn't get resuscitated during my attempt, I would have drowned myself already. Anyways, I hope you find peace soon, best of luck

me too, but im doing it in the middle of the night and will scout the area before doing it to ensure nobody can save me

 

[over2025]

I wonder if taking a bunch of Oxycodone before jumping would make the experience less uncomfortable

 

[Worndown]

It will not be comfortable. To die in your sleep seems to be the only method thought to be comfortable.
If you can actually follow through and do your method, you accept whatever will follow.

 

[curiousbeing]

Ive seen multiple videos of people drowning to death and most of the deaths were in public places with many people there. I plan on doing this at a lake at night where nobody will be around, it's going to be so easy i cant wait to go through with this and leave this shit hole called earth (:

I have a similar method. Evening, cold weather, hypothermia. But just to be sure, I will stab my neck and sever jugular veins, If I can't reach carotid artery. That way, bleeding + infection will also contribute to my ctb

 

[zulcywulcy]

I have a similar method. Evening, cold weather, hypothermia. But just to be sure, I will stab my neck and sever jugular veins, If I can't reach carotid artery. That way, bleeding + infection will also contribute to my ctb

i would do that but too scared that i would somehow mess it up and end up staying alive

 

[curiousbeing]

i would do that but too scared that i would somehow mess it up and end up staying alive

I changed my method. It will be only deodorant huffing and drowning. I mean, I will enter sea, and either wait until hypothermia knocks me out (maybe suddenly I will have cardiac arrest, maybe after 15 minutes, maybe after 45 minutes I will experience cold shock) OR I will inhale deodorant to lose my consciousness faster if I can't wait.

If I really can, I will try to hyperventilate as much as I can, dive inside water and move as hard as I can to use all remaining oxygen reserves in my body. Hopefully this may also make me unconscious

I will write a post too, based on this message

i would do that but too scared that i would somehow mess it up and end up staying alive

Thread 'After years of researching different methods, my ctb plan is ready. When I begin ctbing, I will post my ctb experiences until I fully enter sea' https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...b-experiences-until-i-fully-enter-sea.188839/

Here is my post

 

[zulcywulcy]

I changed my method. It will be only deodorant huffing and drowning. I mean, I will enter sea, and either wait until hypothermia knocks me out (maybe suddenly I will have cardiac arrest, maybe after 15 minutes, maybe after 45 minutes I will experience cold shock) OR I will inhale deodorant to lose my consciousness faster if I can't wait.

If I really can, I will try to hyperventilate as much as I can, dive inside water and move as hard as I can to use all remaining oxygen reserves in my body. Hopefully this may also make me unconscious

I will write a post too, based on this message

Thread 'After years of researching different methods, my ctb plan is ready. When I begin ctbing, I will post my ctb experiences until I fully enter sea' https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...b-experiences-until-i-fully-enter-sea.188839/

Here is my post

sounds like a good plan, but for me i dont care about the pain of drowning normally im willing to expierence it

 

[curiousbeing]

sounds like a good plan, but for me i dont care about the pain of drowning normally im willing to expierence it

Right now I am writing messages to @Intoxicated , here is our discussion:

Post in thread 'Using tetrafluoroethane for CTB?' https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/using-tetrafluoroethane-for-ctb.181190/post-2774908

It seems I can get one of refrigants mentioned and cause asphyxiation in myself by inhaling them. They are much better than deodorants. Right now I asked a question that exactly which one should be used in cold temperature. You can follow our discussion by visiting that link

Right now I am writing messages to @Intoxicated , here is our discussion:

Post in thread 'Using tetrafluoroethane for CTB?' https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/using-tetrafluoroethane-for-ctb.181190/post-2774908

It seems I can get one of refrigants mentioned and cause asphyxiation in myself by inhaling them. They are much better than deodorants. Right now I asked a question that exactly which one should be used in cold temperature. You can follow our discussion by visiting that link

There is so much we wrote there, you just need to visit that link and read for yourself. I am not chemistry expert, so it's hard for me to summarize everything

sounds like a good plan, but for me i dont care about the pain of drowning normally im willing to expierence it

But after I figure everything out, I will write a new post and explain all the changes to my ctb plan, which freon gas I will buy etc

Right now I am writing messages to @Intoxicated , here is our discussion:

Post in thread 'Using tetrafluoroethane for CTB?' https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/using-tetrafluoroethane-for-ctb.181190/post-2774908

It seems I can get one of refrigants mentioned and cause asphyxiation in myself by inhaling them. They are much better than deodorants. Right now I asked a question that exactly which one should be used in cold temperature. You can follow our discussion by visiting that link

There is so much we wrote there, you just need to visit that link and read for yourself. I am not chemistry expert, so it's hard for me to summarize everything

But after I figure everything out, I will write a new post and explain all the changes to my ctb plan, which freon gas I will buy etc

my last remaining problem is that I should choose one that can be used in cold temperature. They all have boiling points, if I choose wrong one, cold weather will mess and greatly reduce its effectiveness. I need to choose one that is sold everywhere & affordable & that can be used in cold weather

 

[saultissad]

I have a similar method. Evening, cold weather, hypothermia. But just to be sure, I will stab my neck and sever jugular veins, If I can't reach carotid artery. That way, bleeding + infection will also contribute to my ctb

I don't think SI will let you slit your own throat. There's a reason you never hear about people successfully committing suicide this way. I think their idea of just ensuring that they're weighed down enough to guarantee escape is best.

 

[FruitBrain]

Honestly, the lake idea I've had in my mind too. I'm in Canada and the general plan I've given more weight to so far is just driving as far north as possible, listen to a few podcasts on my way and head towards a frozen lake. In my mind I should be able to find a strong part of ice I can't break and a soft part I can. Break the soft, swim under and towards the part I can't break to surface. Hoping that at that point, even if my initial reaction is to get out, I won't be able to. I dont know why but drowning seems like the best option for me now.