Venting I am finally considering a time to CTD

[sadcausebad]

Hello everyone, I lurk around here and occasionally make a post or comment here and there. I started journalling recently to get my feelings and thoughts out but came to the realization that I really don't want to keep on trying anymore.

I've been suicidal and have had attempts in the past, I've been in therapy for a few years now and even went to the hospital this past year for my mental health problems but it just isn't enough.

I'm miserable and I decided that 2026 will be my final year alive, I've decided to go with the SN route and hoping I can gather it alongside all the other supplies needed. I read multiple posts by others who did this method and from the lack of activity from those accounts I believe they were successful at least.

I'm hoping to take a train and travel to a city then do a little sightseeing before going to a hotel then preparing everything. I plan on having a few comfort items, maybe a movie and possibly get high with weed but I heard mixed things regarding that.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the peace from suffering you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[sadcausebad]

I don't mean to bump my thread but if anyone in Canada could pm a source for SN that would be much appreciated

 

[Kanashii]

Hello everyone, I lurk around here and occasionally make a post or comment here and there. I started journalling recently to get my feelings and thoughts out but came to the realization that I really don't want to keep on trying anymore.

I've been suicidal and have had attempts in the past, I've been in therapy for a few years now and even went to the hospital this past year for my mental health problems but it just isn't enough.

I'm miserable and I decided that 2026 will be my final year alive, I've decided to go with the SN route and hoping I can gather it alongside all the other supplies needed. I read multiple posts by others who did this method and from the lack of activity from those accounts I believe they were successful at least.

I'm hoping to take a train and travel to a city then do a little sightseeing before going to a hotel then preparing everything. I plan on having a few comfort items, maybe a movie and possibly get high with weed but I heard mixed things regarding that.

I hope the suffering that you're going through disappears. In whatever way that may be, you have my support in watever happens next, all of us do and we all understand. I hope you find what you're looking for.