I am astonished how people can adapt to horrible circumstances

[noname223]

Partly I also think about myself. Humans are just survival machines. I see so many people suffering still they say I want to live or it is worth the struggle. The difference between me and them is. They can accept the situation and be okay with it. I will never be able to do this. Many therapists tell me their wisdom how to manage that, don't compare yourself, love yourself. But this simply does not work for me. Many examples of behavioral therapy does not work for me. I think A LOT and with only a few breaks about me and my illness through the day. About my unhappiness and how other people have way better lives. No wonder many therapists called me treatment resistant. I sometimes think my mind is a prison trained to torture me. At least I can distract myself when I am not extremely depressed.

Still there are so many people how say despite all of what happened it made me a stronger person or other shit. I mean i this works for you great. You might be in a better position than me. My mental state is often crippling (it was even way worse in the past). I am just unable to function. All I do is to become even more bitter and desperate. I think I am the opposite of resilient. I will never be able to let go my suicidality. In crisis I just break down.

 

[Celerity]

I am amazed as well. Someone posted a thread on here about this woman with multiple traumas and mental disorders struggling through life. She said that life doesn't get better, just easier. I read her story and thought how I would have CTB years ago in her circumstances.

The amount of shit people are willing to put up with is dismaying.

 

[Symbiote]

Having gallows humor and a pessimist, but realistic view on life helps me get on with things and if I die someday, oh well. Who cares, because I sure as hell didn't. My past trauma and abuse in childhood has hardened me, it also caused me to adapt to the world as a harsh and unforgiving place. I just exist to merely exist, reap whatever benefits that come my way and live until I can't live anymore.

Some days I don't function very well and I recently learned that people offline can hate you for no reason other than just the mere thought of you existing offends them greatly.

 

[FuneralCry]

I feel the same way, I guess some people are more resilient then others, and in general us humans are programmed to survive. I tend to think some people who are going through a lot of suffering try to act positive in front of others but in reality they are falling apart. I've always lacked the ability to cope with this life and have had low capacity to deal with suffering.

 

[demuic]

I haven't gone through some of the horrors as extreme as other people have gone through, on here or in the rest of the world, and I already want to die. Anything worse and I would be gone.

I guess some people just get acclimated to the way their circumstances are. If most of your life has been extremely shit you can become used to it, you don't know anything else. But if it was pretty good or mediocre but then got really bad that might have more of an impact on you. It's relative. Your "unbearable" might be someone else's "normal", or your "good" could be someone else's breaking point.

 

[suisuiforum]

I'm glad that other people seem to have the ability to cope with such depressing circumstances, but unfortunately maybe I'm just ill-suited for life. I'm also disappointed that we don't have the freedom to opt out when we can't take it anymore, and we'll have to resort to secrecy and risk in order to achieve long-lasting peace of mind.

 

[Anonymous_A]

Everyone adapts, if not, then none of us would be here.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

It sucks really hard for many in this world. My shit really sucks, but I know it's worse other places. But it's so shitty for me...and I feel great empathy for the animals I have had to let go and I worry about them non-stop. I hope one is dead rather than enduring constant shit.

 

[hdahsa]

I guess some people adapt out of necessity because they have no other option. Also the SI must be really strong to keep going despite such adversity. I am not that strong at all to keep enduring such pain and yet wake up ready to face another day of suffering.