i always wonder why didn't died sooner

[lofistos345]

i just can't deal with the current living hell i'm going through...
i had enough
i just wished that i had in the past courage to have killed myself earlier
i just don't why i keep living
why do i keep fighting for the continuous hell i have to deal daily
i no longer feel like doing nothing
and dealing with the toxic people i'm currently living has drained me...
i had enough

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing certainly is so torturous, I get that it's so awful and tiring feeling trapped here. There really is no relief from suffering in this dreadful reality, it's really understandable just wishing to be free.

 

[The anhedonic one]

I'm sure that survival instinct is what chains most of us here to existence.
I wish too that I had died many years ago, because things have never got better, and I'm certain they never will do.

 

[lofistos345]

I'm sure that survival instinct is what chains most of us here to existence.
I wish too that I had died many years ago, because things have never got better, and I'm certain they never will do.

i think that's what's holding me here
the expectation of things getting better