Venting I always ruin everything

[toxicjester]

My girlfriend just wanted a nice Halloween because it's a special time for her. I'm horrible at planning but I asked for the day off and the plan was to wake up early to get shitty costumes and candy, fill our buckets with said candy, and watch a scary movie while eating the candy so it's like we just came back from trick or treating.

We woke up way late and I got upset immediately cause I'm already feeling like a failure at that point. I try to hide it cause I don't want to ruin the day but I'm horrible at hiding how I feel and I just have this cloud of gross energy that my gf picks up on and asks. I talk about it a little but my gf says that she just wants the day to be good so I try to go back to hiding it. We end up procrastinating and not leaving the house until late so we can't go to the Halloween stores but we still go to another store for candy and hoping that they have shitty costumes or accessories but they don't have anything.

Now she's just crying in the car by herself while I'm in McDonald's trying to get her food since it's the fucking least I can do after ruining her day. I just wish I could do something right for once in my pathetic existence.