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Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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Whenever I hear of a successful suicide I always feel so much envy and wish that it's me who left this world. Those people managed to free themselves from the burden of existence and that is such a beautiful thing. There is so much beauty in preventing potentially decades of torment, trapped in an existence not worth enduring. Those who ctb chose to end it all and that is something to be admired. They overcame the instinct to survive and managed to leave behind a world that makes it so difficult for us to die, they overcame all complications and risks potentially involved in suicide and are now free, unable to experience anything for all eternity.
Suicide is not a tragedy in any way, there is nothing sad about exiting this nightmarish world, in fact to die is the most wonderful thing as it solves everything in life. Death is also so normal as well, there is nothing shocking or special about it, it's our fate and is what we are destined for as humans. Only peace and relief could ever exist in the absence of life, as with life comes the capacity to suffer and the ability to experience such dread and despair, life itself will always be the true problem which is why I always envy those who die.
I see no value in continuing to stay here, suffering endlessly day after day and the reality is that suffering holds no benefit and has no purpose. I only admire those who choose to leave behind this life that they never asked for, they are the fortunate ones, especially those who left at a very young age. I envy them the most in particular as I so wish that was me, I've suffered for too long at this point and the way that I see it, the more years here prevented, the better. There is no limit as to how much life can torture us as long as we stay here and this is the reality of existing.
Of course those who have N die the ideal death but when I hear of someone succeeding with a method like jumping or hanging, I so admire the courage they had. It makes suicide sound much easier than it actually is. The reality is that only those who die are the ones who are really lucky. To exist is such a torturous and pointless thing with all this pain existing simply as a consequence of evolution, and that's certainly a tragedy. This is why the thought of no longer existing comforts me so much and why there is so much beauty in permanently leaving this world.
Suicide is not a tragedy in any way, there is nothing sad about exiting this nightmarish world, in fact to die is the most wonderful thing as it solves everything in life. Death is also so normal as well, there is nothing shocking or special about it, it's our fate and is what we are destined for as humans. Only peace and relief could ever exist in the absence of life, as with life comes the capacity to suffer and the ability to experience such dread and despair, life itself will always be the true problem which is why I always envy those who die.
I see no value in continuing to stay here, suffering endlessly day after day and the reality is that suffering holds no benefit and has no purpose. I only admire those who choose to leave behind this life that they never asked for, they are the fortunate ones, especially those who left at a very young age. I envy them the most in particular as I so wish that was me, I've suffered for too long at this point and the way that I see it, the more years here prevented, the better. There is no limit as to how much life can torture us as long as we stay here and this is the reality of existing.
Of course those who have N die the ideal death but when I hear of someone succeeding with a method like jumping or hanging, I so admire the courage they had. It makes suicide sound much easier than it actually is. The reality is that only those who die are the ones who are really lucky. To exist is such a torturous and pointless thing with all this pain existing simply as a consequence of evolution, and that's certainly a tragedy. This is why the thought of no longer existing comforts me so much and why there is so much beauty in permanently leaving this world.