I almost died from an infection

[trianglesplayhouse]

I think my immune system got lowered because of the stress of going to hospitals for mental health emergencies for a week straight. Then a couple of days later I got sepsis and almost died. Went to the hospital again of course. Turns out I almost died from an ingrown hair.

If I just keep neglecting myself and stressing myself out somehow and I forget about going to hospital at all, then I'll definitely die soon. I don't even have to put effort into a suicide method anymore. I'm just gonna die anyway. Wow. Easy easy peasy peasy. Lemon. Squeeeezy.
I genuinely feel like i'm going insane. Like I've really genuinely lost it. I was telling the mental health nurses "If you let me go there's a possibility I'll kill myself" and then let me go because I didn't say I was going to kill myself for sure. Guess where I am at!!! The UK!!! Worst health care system ever!! What a poor excuse for a first world country.

 

[darksouls]

that is truly terrible, I am also a sepsis survivor, I have been a nursing case ever since, I hope it did not hit you so hard, get well soon