hygiene

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

I found it really hard to take care of myself when depressed/suicidal
I mean, i cant even go out of bed..

It makes me cry to be honest
People used to say that im a good-looking guy
But now when i see myself in the mirror its like im being tortured
Why im forced to see myself in this state? and in future gonna be worse probably..

 

[AllFoxedOut]

i don't look in the mirror anymore. i haven't showered since Monday. only today brushed my teeth.

it's hard for me to keep up with hygiene as well

 

[delusionalgirl]

I'm 90% positive I've been wearing the same thing for 3 days. I just grab whatever is on the floor. I only make an effort if I'm going out to the store.

 

[jussaloser]

i shower once a week and shave every few months.
im surprised nobody noticed that i stopped caring about my appearance.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

I think most people who are suicidal struggle with even getting out of bed.

You can take a quick shower and it will last like a few minutes and I know it's not always easy but I always feel a bit better after taking a shower.

 

[MrDarkness]

I've always been depressed, yet I've always taken showers, maybe it's cause I hate the smell, even at my lowest I still showered, then again my room is a mess, I have carpet beetles, I'm too tired to clean my room I just wanna sleep

 

[JustLain]

Time feels so slow to me, yet it moves so fast and I never have the energy to keep up. By the time I slump over into my bed it's too late when I realize I haven't done anything hygienic that day. Forgetfulness, depression, and my sense of time are curses to my hygienics.

 

[dofogry]

I keep myself clean but I gained a lot of weight cause I don't care anymore about my health. So I just eat every junk food there is just so I can have some pleasure while I don't ctb.

 

[The anhedonic one]

I'm homeless, so find it a challenge to stay clean.
It's very difficult for me to get through the day. I have to go to the public toilets to have a wash and a shave.
I get some really nasty looks off people when they see me doing this, and it hurts so much at times. Yet these people don't know my story, or what I've been through.
Also cleaning my clothes is difficult too, because the local laundry is always busy and they don't like me going in there because they know I'm homeless.
I'm tired of people looking at me like I'm a piece of human garbage.

This past couple of weeks I haven't washed or shaved at all.
I don't care about being clean anymore and I'm starting to smell really bad now because of the hot weather.
I take this as a sign that I am ready to die now, because I have always been a fighter and kept myself clean. But I know my time is short now because I have truly given up on this thing called life, and just want to end all of my suffering forever.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is such a tedious burden and a futile chore to me, I think it's something so tiring being trapped inside a decaying flesh prison where we are slaves to our suffering and slaves to our needs, it's certainly understandable feeling so tired of it all.

 

[Valky]

I've always been depressed, yet I've always taken showers, maybe it's cause I hate the smell, even at my lowest I still showered, then again my room is a mess, I have carpet beetles, I'm too tired to clean my room I just wanna sleep

Felt that 100%

 

[misarexic]

i haven't properly taken care of my body in years. don't even know if i'm capable of it anymore.

my weight fluctuates constantly and i haven't had a good relationship with food like, ever. i care so much about how everyone perceives me but i can't even take care of myself so i'm never good enough

 

[mlcs]

Showering basically everyday cause I'm used to it. Still I can't look myself into the mirror anymore cause 2 months of deprived sleep and constant cramp on my face took the price. I can still feel vessel on my face, unable to relax for even a minute. My face is red and swollen. I was advised to take some meds but I know they dont help but just make me lazy and cut the connection with reality. Once I get off them, the pain of realisation would be so unbearable that I'd probably run and jump in front of the first car.

 

[MrDarkness]

Felt that 100%

Fuckin hate carpet beetles, my brother keeps shitting on me for having them, but unless I get rid of my carpet I can't do fuck all, he makes it sound like my entire room is filled with them, even though I rarely even seen them

 

[Valky]

Fuckin hate carpet beetles, my brother keeps shitting on me for having them, but unless I get rid of my carpet I can't do fuck all, he makes it sound like my entire room is filled with them, even though I rarely even seen them

I luckily have no experience with them but getting shit done is easier said than done. Keeping my room clean and cleaning it is still one of the hardest things for me even tho I am doing a lot better in general.