Venting Hurting

[On Replay]

The hurt in my heart , the pain in my heart. The hate ? I don't hate anyone but me though .. I can't let it go. I cry that's all I'm good at

I want to die. I hope I die , everyday. Every single day , it hurts my heart when I wake up. I haven't fallen asleep yet , but I'm already not looking forward to the couple hours ahead. When I wake up again and do this day all over again

 

[Un-]

I never understood when people say they sleep to cope. I'm terrified of sleeping, because it means I'll have to wake up. And every single morning for the past couple of years, when I've woken up, I've felt pain. Hurt.

Like you, I don't even have hate anymore. I used to be misanthropic. I used to be really homicidal, but now I don't care. I don't care at all. I want to leave.

I know how you feel, @On Replay. You're not alone, here.

"I don't want to live like this anymore
I don't want to live at all
I don't want to make this face anymore
But if I don't, that's all

I don't love
I don't feel anything
I don't feel anything where this love should be"

 

[FuneralCry]

For me, sleep can never offer that much relief as long as the chance of waking the next day is there. It would be ideal to never wake again. Your feelings of wanting to be free from this world are understandable. Having to exist really is so tiring.

 

[On Replay]

I love to sleep, it's the only peace I have. Sometimes it's hard to fall asleep I'll admit , sometimes I can't. But when I do, I cherish it because it's absolute nothing. The closet thing I have to death @FuneralCry @Un-

 

[makethepainstop]

If anything helps a soul to feel better, GO FOR IT! Alcohol, THC gummies, dancing.....

 

[On Replay]

If anything helps a soul to feel better, GO FOR IT! Alcohol, THC gummies, dancing.....

And I DO ! Haha. I use to smoke but I'm trying to quit. But drinking ? That's my thing now & then dancing just follows suit . Gummies never did anything for me for some reason , only ran me to the bathroom . Maybe my tolerance of actually smoking or maybe the gummies I had themselves ? Idk really

 

[makethepainstop]

And I DO ! Haha. I use to smoke but I'm trying to quit. But drinking ? That's my thing now & then dancing just follows suit . Gummies never did anything for me for some reason , only ran me to the bathroom . Maybe my tolerance of actually smoking or maybe the gummies I had themselves ? Idk really

Bro whatever WORKS, if something doesn't work discard it.

 

[On Replay]

Person in that video was beautiful btw , absolutely

 

[CTB Dream]

Hurt all life full pain wish never wake up end life misery , nothing qble stop pain only way leave life

 

[On Replay]

Hurt all life full pain wish never wake up end life misery , nothing qble stop pain only way leave life

You've always been so kind to me, thank you. I'm not the best at understanding sometimes , but I recognize your name . And you took the time to respond to me . Thank you

Hurt all life full pain wish never wake up end life misery , nothing qble stop pain only way leave life

The end of life would bring an end to misery , that's what I want to believe as well