• ⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block. If you're located in the UK, we recommend using a VPN to maintain access.

Renv1o_

Renv1o_

Student
May 10, 2023
128
Am I terrible for not worrying about hurting those around me if I cbt?

I know it's something others worry about often- But for me, I always feel like people's grief will be temporary. I don't see much use in my staying around and I don't think people will care all that much- I know logically thats stupid. I live with quite a few siblings and my mum and they're wonderful people that would be hurt by it all.
But im so convinced my going would do more good than harm in the long run. There's no use in sticking around, even if I love them.

It's such a confusing feeling. I feel odd thinking about how people would react if I wasn't here anymore.
I realise this is all phrased really weirdly and super contradictory😭 its really weird to think about. I know family would care, but their care feels misplaced and temporary. idk if I make much sense- I feel like I'm running circles in my brain.
 
Last edited:
  • Hugs
Reactions: dyn00ss
dyn00ss

dyn00ss

Member
Mar 3, 2023
80
Am I terrible for not worrying about hurting those around me if I cbt?

I know it's something others worry about often- But for me, I always feel like people's grief will be temporary. I don't see much use in my staying around and I don't think people will care all that much- I know logically thats stupid. I live with quite a few siblings and my mum and they're wonderful people that would be hurt by it all.
But im so convinced my going would do more good than harm in the long run. There's no use in sticking around, even if I love them.

It's such a confusing feeling. I feel odd thinking about how people would react if I wasn't here anymore.
I realise this is all phrased really weirdly and super contradictory😭 its really weird to think about. I know family would care, but their care feels misplaced and temporary. idk if I make much sense- I feel like I'm running circles in my brain.
In my view this helps and it's good, at least it would be for me I really wanted to care less so I would already have CTB, but I also think on the one hand that the mourning is fleeting and that if I'm making them suffer alive, when I die at least it will end their suffering and mine, now if I continue they will suffer while I go like this..
 

Similar threads

D
Replies
0
Views
90
Suicide Discussion
Depressed&Stressed
D
dayhell
Replies
4
Views
117
Suicide Discussion
dayhell
dayhell
Doll Steak
Replies
0
Views
83
Offtopic
Doll Steak
Doll Steak
ElTopo
Replies
4
Views
131
Offtopic
Angst Filled Fuck Up
Angst Filled Fuck Up