How

[HollowHeartedTool]

How do I do this anymore.
-I haven't been able to get a job for almost two years now
-I can't seem to get on socal security
-no support from anyone whatsoever
-everything I have is falling apart
-i am constantly reminded of what I can never do in my life everywhere I go or look.
-I am completely isolated from the world.

How do I even go on anymore. Because all I think about now is how I can kill myself

 

[rs929]

Is it impossible to work towards breaking the isolation? In small ways, like talking to us here. Maybe reconnecting with someone from the past, or talk to the cashier when you're buying groceries. Maybe that sparks the motivation to find a way to solve the money problems

 

[Oreki]

How do I do this anymore.
-I haven't been able to get a job for almost two years now
-I can't seem to get on socal security
-no support from anyone whatsoever
-everything I have is falling apart
-i am constantly reminded of what I can never do in my life everywhere I go or look.
-I am completely isolated from the world.

How do I even go on anymore. Because all I think about now is how I can kill myself

I'm completely isolated from the world as well. Part of it was my own choice, but of course there's also a part of me that longs for the opposite. So now I'm living in this strange contradiction, and I don't think I can easily get out of it anymore. Being here helps me, even if just a little.
It's a strange feeling to know there are 8 billion people in the world, yet most of the time I only see myself