Discussion How would you young ones feel if your parent ctb?

[Retched]

Just wondering what the 18-20 year old crowd on here would do if it was your parent(s) caught the bus? Would you recover? Would it make you more suicidal?

 

[Ghab]

Honestly depends on the parent....but It would probably speed up my process. Maybe even make it easier.

 

[Circles]

Just wondering what the 18-20 year old crowd on here would do if it was your parent(s) caught the bus? Would you recover? Would it make you more suicidal?

Not that young, but my father was a quadriplegic after he drunk drove into a cliff. Still not sure if that was a suicide attempt. But the way he lived and seeing him like that made me want to put him out of his own misery. That is no way to live period. Plus my mother could potentially get Alzheimer's because her mother and grandmother had it too. I would respect their decision regardless and would understand the gravity of their situation. It's their life, their choice. I just wish they never had me to deal with the grief of understanding. I'd say I would be just as suicidal if not more when my mother passes but I would still respect her decision.

 

[worldexploder]

I'm not close to my parents. My aunts my mom and I'm very close to her but if she decided CTB I would respect her choice. With life comes loss and I would feel a great loss but it wouldn't give me any right to stop her. Just like she has no right to stop me. One of us is gonna go first anyhow.

 

[iamthezero]

Moms already dead. But my father, I would respect it. Honestly,(and sadly) I'd benefit more from his death than I ever would with him being somewhere in the world.

 

[gingerplum]

I have a 16 yr-old daughter and an 18 yr-old son. Honestly when they were little they were a near-constant source of joy for me. I love them desperately. I've been a good parent, so their independence is sort of a bittersweet source of pride for me. I miss being needed, I guess.

I don't want to hurt them. I just hope against hope they'll somehow understand, maybe eventually forgive me.

 

[okyeah]

Unfortunately I hate both my parents, and not just in an angsty way, so I probably wouldn't blink if one did it.

 

[Paloma]

I honestly don't know.

 

[Retched]

Not that young, but my father was a quadriplegic after he drunk drove into a cliff. Still not sure if that was a suicide attempt. But the way he lived and seeing him like that made me want to put him out of his own misery. That is no way to live period. Plus my mother could potentially get Alzheimer's because her mother and grandmother had it too. I would respect their decision regardless and would understand the gravity of their situation. It's their life, their choice. I just wish they never had me to deal with the grief of understanding. I'd say I would be just as suicidal if not more when my mother passes but I would still respect her decision.

Yeah, now I wonder how any age would feel about it. Thanks for your input.

 

[Sick Boy]

I´d be in state of shock for months or even years

 

[Schopenhauer]

I don't love my parents, I only like them. It's rather sad, but it's true. Not because they did anything wrong, but because I'm a broken person. If either of them ctb, I'd be moderately sad, and move on quickly. I'm not attached to them.

 

[pushka]

I have a terrible relationship with both parents; my mother made me homeless when I was 19/20 and my father was physically abusive until I moved out when I was 16. Honestly, it wouldn't bother me in the slightest.

It makes me think of the whole societal expectation that one should unconditionally love and respect one's parents simply because they made them. This isn't true, though most peoplein general do not understand it (this is mainly those who have never been severly negatively impacted by their parents.) So, some people may call me cold-hearted for saying I would feel no emotion upon hearing about the death about parent, but to me it seems perfectly rational considering my experiences.

 

[MAIO]

Just wondering what the 18-20 year old crowd on here would do if it was your parent(s) caught the bus? Would you recover? Would it make you more suicidal?

I am not sure honestly-they are super religious and I would inherit millions. My dad would nevercommit suicide, my mom on the other hand with her borderline personality disorder could.

 

[sólstafir]

My father would never do it, neither would mother. I can't answer the question therefore. Knowing them so well, the possibility of it is out of the question, therefore I can't imagine it at all.

 

[TAW122]

I wouldn't feel too bad about it mostly because my parents have been shitty while I was growing up (sure they provided my physical needs and what not, but they were emotionally abusive and my mother was often taking my fathers' side blindly). As far as ctb'ing, well it would just make it easier for me since I don't have to worry about hurting their feelings. I've known a few people IRL who have lost their parents (at least one of them) when they were 18-20 year olds so I'd imagine if they (they're normies even) could somehow still accept it and still move on with their lives, then I shouldn't have much more difficulty to do so, especially if my eventual end goal is ctb.

 

[Thoughtforms]

It would destroy me. I would never get over it.
Sadly I don't think they care about me as much as I care about them. They know I'm suicidal and don't care.

 

[Fucking loving it]

My step dad was just like a bio dad to me. He CTB. I was never angry at him. I understand why he did it. The grief is still intense. It didn't speed up any CTB thoughts or attempts. I just get it.
If my mom CTB I'd be gutted. Idk what would happen to me. Might through me over the edge. I have so much grief over the loss of my daughter that idk if I could handle it.

 

[Smashingairwaves]

My father talked for years about how suicidal he is. I'm surprised he never did it to be honest, as horrible as it sounds.

I have a terrible relationship with both parents. I'd be shocked, probably sad, but I don't think it would effect when I CTB myself

 

[Mr. Bill]

I'm 24, but if any parent of mine killed themselves I'd be sad for a while but considering how genetic mental illness is, I'd completely understand.

 

[GeorgeEastman]

Going back to when I was that age, if it would have been my mom it would have been devastating, but understandable.

If it was my dad though, probably nothing. What a man does is his business, but I believe in protecting the women in the family. Still fucked me up bad that she died this year from cancer. I'd have traded places with her for sure.

 

[ouvreyes]

Since I'm dependent on them financially and stuff it would make things hard, but emotionally I wouldn't care.

 

[Virgo]

I don't have any relationships with anyone. I could care less. Their deaths would make the world slightly better though.

 

[Roulette]

It wouldn't make any difference. It feels like they're strangers

 

[Final Escape]

I don't love my parents, I only like them. It's rather sad, but it's true. Not because they did anything wrong, but because I'm a broken person. If either of them ctb, I'd be moderately sad, and move on quickly. I'm not attached to them.

This is why I was afraid to have kids of my own. They might think this of me. That would be horrible if u couldn't get your kid to love u but mostly tolerate u because they had no choice lol!

 

[Virgo]

This is why I was afraid to have kids of my own. They might think this of me. That would be horrible if u couldn't get your kid to love u but mostly tolerate u because they had no choice lol!

He's dead.