Most incredulous thing in your CTB/mental health journey?

[Bismillah6925]

Hey, it's an odd question, but I need to be validated.

While I was in an appointment with my psychiatrist a few months ago, I mentioned I was suicidal as the side effects of the meds she prescribed me.

The drugs she prescribed me were Zoloft, Wellbutrin, and the like. Famous for black box warnings that say "You're taking these drugs to stop being suicidal, but the side effects are suicidal thoughts and actions."

Here's the crazy bit. She said she needed to stop the appointment and call the local suicide hotline. As she isn't qualified to discuss further.

I'm not crazy here, right? That's shit, right? Psychiatrists are qualified to discuss the side effects of the drugs they prescribe, including suicidal thoughts and ideations?

Every time I've mentioned it again to her and other doctors, they act like I'M THE CRAZY ONE for questioning this procedure.

What's the most WTF moment in your CTB journeys?

 

[Kanau_Nano]

I've never had anything like that happen. That does sound really odd. I feel like a psychiatrist is WAY better trained than a hotline worker.

The most wtf moment to me was how little psych wards help me. They force me in there after ctb attempt, then when I say I don't feel better after a week they are shocked. No therapy at all the whole time.
A week later I lie to get out and they think I'm honest.

 

[auti]

I constantly have the experience of being told that there are resources for me when there really are not. I've been told I'll probably be suicidal for the rest of my life. My therapist is stumped too. They say anyone can get better but I guess they must be wrong. Also I've had psychs not refill my meds leading to me getting so much worse and then they wonder what happened.

I've never had anything like that happen. That does sound really odd. I feel like a psychiatrist is WAY better trained than a hotline worker.

The most wtf moment to me was how little psych wards help me. They force me in there after ctb attempt, then when I say I don't feel better after a week they are shocked. No therapy at all the whole time.
A week later I lie to get out and they think I'm honest.

Yeah one time I lied my way out and then just attempted right after lol and still nothing changed!!

 

[meowzers3276]

probably getting lice from one pediatric psych ward

and when a therapist tried to force religion on me

and when a psychiatrist precribed me a beta blocker, which could have killed me in my sleep if i hadnt seen cardiologist who told me to stop taking them immediately. but idk if the psychiatrist was at fault because i was not yet diagnosed with the bradycardia (slower heart beat) that the beta blocker worsens.

theres also many times ive been prescribed medication that made me very violent toward myself and others, like lurasidone

i keep editing as i remember more - recently, i fell down a cliff during a psychosis and was hospitalized. when i wake up i was fully naked, just under a sheet, like a dead woman. i was so confused and probably sedated, so i didnt care, but wtf... i had been in that hospital since 6am, i woke up at 2pm in trauma unit... still naked... like what

 

[IrishBug]

The worst thing my psychiatrist is doing to me is preventing me from getting diazapam. I was an alcoholic for a long time so he's worried I'll get addicted. I have spent several months inpatient under his care, when I'm inpatient Diaz is available to me 10mg per 24 hours but I still only ask for it once a week or less so he can see that I am cautious about taking it.

But I've never been addicted to Diaz and only need 10mg once every week or so. I have Parkinsons and when my anxiety peaks my motor symptoms go crazy but he'll only give me 10 X 5mg tablets each time I see him.

It costs $300 to see him so I can only do it once every 3 months or so. I hate asking him for it because he makes me feel like I'm an addict but it must be plainly obvious to him I'm not doing well given that everytime he sees me the left side of my body won't stop moving. He also wrote to my normal doctor saying not to give me any.

Soon I need to fly somewhere for a specialist appointment. Flying is stressful as is seeing a new doctor so I'm currently saving up tablets to be able to do that.

The end result is I go no where and do nothing which makes my mental health significantly worse. Alcohol works as an alternative in a pinch but I don't wanna do that anymore.

 

[Untimely]

Therapist just dipped on me first meeting. Said I was too difficult of a patient lol

 

[Aflame5926]

i mean feeling suicidal and acting suicidal are 2 different things.

Here's the crazy bit. She said she needed to stop the appointment and call the local suicide hotline. As she isn't qualified to discuss further.

what the actually fuck? i would demand an explanation for this. this makes 100% sense

and if you think it would been a side effect of the medication i would assume to built the medicaiton off asap and try a new one but what the hell..

 

[3FailedAttemptss]

My treatment at the motherfucking SUICIDE PREVENTION CLINIC was terminated following one of my psych ward suicide attempts…

 

[Red.one]

my psychiatrist explained it to me like that - lots of meds have this a side effect, usually a month to 3 months when you start therapy. It's because if you're depressed and suicidal, the first thing the meds do is giving you more "power to live and do something", but you're depressed so the main "do something" in this moment is to kill yourself. And that's why therapy is so important, even more when you start or get off with meds.

I had this side effects a few times. One time it was really bad, and my psychiatrist back than was a moron. My hair was falling out like autumn leaves. Panic attacks got stronger. Overall I was feeling like a zombie, but fast. After a month guy just said "let's wait It out, worst case scenario is you'll get a new haircut" (bold... for him and for me).
I tried to off 2 weeks later...

If your doctor gives you a bad feelings, go and find another! Psychiatrist should help, listen to you and make you feel better! My current psychiatrist is the best person I could get. When I'm going on a new medication I can call her any time, she's very careful with what to prescribe me.

I whish you the best! And remember about therapy - meds without it is like a plaster on a broken leg, but without getting sure that the bone is in wright position, it can mess you up even more...

 

[morina]

Honestly, the most incredulous thing to me is how easy it is to lie myself out of forced therapy (especially forceful admission to psych wards). After being put into a psych ward for months and traumatised there as a young child less than 10 years old I never wanted to be in something like that again. But during my adolescence, I sometimes was a little too honest with therapists and psychologists, believing they could help me, and they threatened me with placing me into one of these again and sent me to psychiatrists to get that confirmed. Those would have been able to admit me multiple times, but when speaking with them, I could just act happy and hopeful, downplay everything I had said before, and they believed me, just lectured me about how I shouldn't say things I don't really mean.

Don't get me wrong, I am very happy that worked. But how can it be that easy? That happened multiple times. Of course, psychiatrists can't read minds or something like that, but I'd expect they at least have some kind of talent of not being easy to lie to.