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ClownWorld2023

Arcanist
Sep 18, 2023
479
Below 10 for sure.

I'm grateful that I haven't had a psychosis, but I won't be able to manage for much longer.
 
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derpyderpins

derpyderpins

I'd like to leave the world as a better place
Sep 19, 2023
2,107
Based just on circumstances, honestly probably 80 or so.

Including my personal feelings and mental health issues, probably 30ish. 20-40 range. Not good enough to be worth it, but not bad enough to kms rn.
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
4,968
65, I guess. My life has always been okay, never amazing but never horrible. I have parents and grandparents who love me, I have a roof over my head, food in my belly, etc. I've never had much to really complain about.
 
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Username1359751

Enlightened
Mar 14, 2024
1,333
Realistically, like without exaggeration, like 13-17?
Trying to be logical and include a global perspective.
69. 😏

Unfortunately I'm Asian so anything less than 100 is a complete and absolute failure.
You're asian? I thought you were so white...😂🤦‍♀️

This is apart of what I don't love, you can't tell what region people are at, their age, their race so you can have the slightest image of their cultural background. That's why I put my shit out there so ppl know what to expect, and also because I'm still in search of a partner. I also don't have anything to lose because there's no one who could identify me unless I were doxxed, and even then, what else could be done to me at this point?
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,012
69. 😏

Unfortunately I'm Asian so anything less than 100 is a complete and absolute failure.
Lol 🤣 69. Same. It needs to be perfect for it to be acceptable to me. For me, it's better to never have tried at all than to have tried and failed. I can't stand being average and mediocre. I have to be exceptional
 
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bieatmania

bieatmania

早く殺してくれ。
Dec 22, 2023
87
it's actually close to 75 or something because my parents are so economically stable and they aren't abusive.
I was bullied in elementary school for autism and that's why I've got bipolar but even with this advantage my life is good right now.
at least I think my life is good because I am hypomanic right now, I would come back to this forum often when I go through depression phase, not active during mania phase.
 
Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,387
You're asian? I thought you were so white...😂🤦‍♀️

This is apart of what I don't love, you can't tell what region people are at, their age, their race so you can have the slightest image of their cultural background. That's why I put my shit out there so ppl know what to expect, and also because I'm still in search of a partner. I also don't have anything to lose because there's no one who could identify me unless I were doxxed, and even then, what else could be done to me at this point?
Yeah I'm Asian but to be fair, I'm basically an American with Asian skin. I never even left the country once until I was 18 and I still can't even speak my parents' native language. I didn't even really experience any racism or culture shock either since where I live in California, there's plenty of other Asians of the same type too so that's probably why my life rating is relatively high. 🤔

For me the only reason to even try to hide my identity is because I'm afraid someone I know might find me here and then they'd know about my plans.
 
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JKFleck

JKFleck

Betrayed by my only friend, nothing left to lose
Oct 1, 2023
211
minus infinity, wait uhm.... I mean, 5, unbearable, infinite pain for years
 
EmptyHeaded

EmptyHeaded

Experienced
Jan 24, 2024
229
I'd say about 80, probably a bit higher.
 
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Username1359751

Enlightened
Mar 14, 2024
1,333
it's actually close to 75 or something because my parents are so economically stable and they aren't abusive.
I was bullied in elementary school for autism and that's why I've got bipolar but even with this advantage my life is good right now.
at least I think my life is good because I am hypomanic right now, I would come back to this forum often when I go through depression phase, not active during mania phase.
My former therapist is autistic and bipolar. I liked her quite a bit, and thought she was very relatable and intelligent.
Yeah I'm Asian but to be fair, I'm basically an American with Asian skin. I never even left the country once until I was 18 and I still can't even speak my parents' native language. I didn't even really experience any racism or culture shock either since where I live in California, there's plenty of other Asians of the same type too so that's probably why my life rating is relatively high. 🤔

For me the only reason to even try to hide my identity is because I'm afraid someone I know might find me here and then they'd know about my plans.
Yeah it's not a big deal at all. Any kids that weren't white where I grew up, we didn't think or expect anything different. There was very little differences. My "mexican" friend as a child, while I taught her this cheer-valley-girl two-person clap song, she taught us one which only today do I realize was crazy and racist af! But we didn't know what the hell we were saying or what the true meaning of "grab you by the collar, make you pay a dollar. I don't want to go to Mexico no more, more, more!" was...🙄😬😳🤪

Just, if I was talking to you in person for whatever reason, and I found out you were your username, I'd be like, "Whaaaattt??? Bitch you trippin'!🖐" or something less obvious.
 
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Promised Heaven

Promised Heaven

Eternally atoning
Feb 1, 2024
704
Physically, I'm at a 95. I have a home, I have a decent job, no physical suffering besides some numb nerve damage and the occasional bruising from work.

Mentally, I'm around a 55. I have episodes of wanting to impulsively CTB but other times where I'm numb. Depression was cured by vitamin D but I just feel like I'm not enjoying life as much as I should, and it drags me back into constantly feeling miserable and overwhelmed at trauma, and it's almost always caused by my intrusive thoughts.

If I was asked this while facing emotional overwhelm, I'll probably answer a 15-20 at most.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
12,852
I have to make a distinction here how I see my personal by myself and how others and the outside world would see it.

I would see myself in a range of about 25-35 - rotting away at home, no chances to really recover from a big big failure in life but still physically and mentally healthy (no severe mental disorders, only depressive episodes sometimes)

Others / outside world would probably rate my life with 70-90.

Overall I would say it's 40-50 avg. Not too bad but not good either but generally relatively "safe".
 
Crash_Bash_Dash

Crash_Bash_Dash

Nothing what I used to be
Apr 23, 2024
102
Hard to say. Perhaps something between 25-35 mentally.
 
Lady Laudanum

Lady Laudanum

Here for a bad time, not a long time
May 9, 2024
873
I'm gonna give it a 69 because hehehehe funny sex number
 
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BruhXDDDDD

BruhXDDDDD

Student
Feb 18, 2022
180
Most of today was a 60 and I maybe fell to ~15 about 15 minutes ago. Most of yesterday and the night before that was at a 10, but before that it was 75-ish.