I wish everyone who abandoned me could see the consequences of what they did with traumatic images of my body. But unfortunately im just going to use SN so...
I'd be disgusted but anyway I'm not planning to film my CTB then there is no risk of appearing on gore sites at all.
Valky
Petulant Child
- Apr 4, 2023
- 1,322
Absolutely disgusted. Suicide is not something to joke about. Making jokes and watching the death with a kind of joy is a sickening thing to do. It has nothing to do with being pro-choice.
The fact that these people felt so lost and lonely in life that they decided to leave is incredibly sad, even when considering that their pain finally came to an end. It needs to be taken seriously. Mental illness is still looked down upon and these type of people are not making it better.
The fact that these people felt so lost and lonely in life that they decided to leave is incredibly sad, even when considering that their pain finally came to an end. It needs to be taken seriously. Mental illness is still looked down upon and these type of people are not making it better.
SuicidalOrganism
Experienced
- May 31, 2023
- 223
I dislike those who joke about it too with the excuse that it is dark humor, like how can someone make a joke at someones death. Seems sociopathic.
Jezzibell
On my way out. Yayyyyy
- Apr 21, 2023
- 709
Ringo
Rabbits on the Moon
- Dec 3, 2020
- 1,699
Being honest I'm more concerned about the implications of suffering a gory death. The mere idea that your death is used in a sensational way or to satisfy someone isn't pleasant in the least, but in my situation it is something that has a chance of happening and I have already made peace with it, I will not exist so I don't care.
It would be really fucked up survive and find out that your attempt was used to ridicule you, which as disgusting as it seems, is common in bullying cases.
It would be really fucked up survive and find out that your attempt was used to ridicule you, which as disgusting as it seems, is common in bullying cases.
hells "angel"
Is there an end? Does this Stop?
- Jun 28, 2023
- 28
If I chose to publicly commit suicide, It wouldn't really matter. If I were to do it public (prolly maybe not unless jumping off a bridge/building and there happens to be people around) it would be because I want people to see it. So yeah it wouldn't really mean shit. Plus I'd be dead. Although the thought of someone sending a video of me jumping/the aftermath to my family makes it not so appealing.
Right, I forgot some people have gore fetishes. Yeah even more of a deterrent than someone sending the video to a family member.
Right, I forgot some people have gore fetishes. Yeah even more of a deterrent than someone sending the video to a family member.
Sweet Tart
Arcanist
- May 10, 2023
- 452
I was not really aware gore sites exist outside of horror films, tho I suppose everything imaginable can be found somewhere on the internet. I don't care what happens to my body after I ctb. A body is just a body. But the process of ctb is a private thing to me, and I definitely wouldn't allow it to be filmed.
FormerlyFe(IV)
Snapped.
- Jun 27, 2023
- 419
Parasitic
Tew
- Jun 16, 2023
- 34
Sorry for the late reply, haven't had the chance to be on here for a few days.
Outside of what is needed to be accepted by societies standards people couldn't give a shit about my life or "celebrate" anything I have done. I will get given praise/positivity if I do something that benefits someone else otherwise I'm not worth someones breath so ima go with the find morbid entertainment (not so much pleasure although im sure for some it will be). The whole idea of being celebrated or people pretending to give a shit after im dead and doing that cliche "he was a good person, gone too soon" stuff makes me sick to my stomach.
sadscotsman
Member
- Jul 2, 2023
- 17
This question gave me pause the more I thought about it. My kneejerk reaction was that I'd ideally like to go out as painlessly as possible and that it wouldn't make for anything visually spectacular or interesting for a site like that, but then I remembered some of the things I've seen on sites like that and started to think that it'd be pretty cool... Then it struck me, I know there's people who feel like gore sites traumatised them deeply and I already experience a lot of guilt around my thoughts. I'd feel guilty. I always feel guilty, though, I feel guilty that people even have to look at me alive so nevermind looking at me after something like that.
wanttodie
Enlightened
- Apr 19, 2018
- 1,805
ronj
Member
- Jun 13, 2023
- 14
ddn.ctb
Waiting to step off in front of an audience
- Sep 9, 2023
- 236
I am like you - I think having an audience for my suicide is rather exciting. And maybe I'd be happy to have my CTB on a gore site. It's a form of post-life humiliation. Nevertheless, it would be talked about :)
Interesting point of view. But the idea I'd be in a gore site doesn't bother me, It may actually feel a bit exciting, Maybe it's my 15 minutes of death fame. In my own CTB streaming plans, I no longer worry about if I end up on a gore site.
Being dead means you have no regrets
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ddn.ctb
Waiting to step off in front of an audience
- Sep 9, 2023
- 236
Well being dead has advantages. You won't feel it.
But if my death was on one. It meant my CTB stream went viral. So success! :).
But if my death was on one. It meant my CTB stream went viral. So success! :).
Altalune
alea iacta est
- Oct 21, 2023
- 48
I'm planning on taking the entire thing on video and leaving a detailed note as to what happened and when for research purposes and documentation, so I'd expect the video to end up online at some point. I'm also one of those people who watches these kinds of things so... I don't think it would affect me in any way.
ddn.ctb
Waiting to step off in front of an audience
- Sep 9, 2023
- 236
I plan to stream as well. And it it ends up on a gore site. So be it. But I plan to leave enough information that can be used for research.
Id be happy if someone wants to contact me with pm with ideas
bridgegirl
life on the edge, I guess
- Oct 16, 2023
- 138
Yeah, I would fucking hate that if it happened. The spot I have is somewhat private.. but who knows I guess. 
Don’tDoxMe
Victim of abuse and the US healthcare system
- Oct 19, 2023
- 75
I'd be enraged at edgelords using my dead body for entertainment. I would however like for my suicide note to go viral.
I don't think I would really care too much. I mean i literally couldn't, because I would be dead, but it wouldn't really be my concern anymore.
kaipuff
｡°✩ the zeitgeist ✩°｡
- Feb 22, 2023
- 30
ive had an obsession with gore websites since i was 12, so my death being on there would be.. cool, but not in a good sense, im not sure how to explain it.
Loserparasite
In the valley of death I am their king.
- Apr 28, 2023
- 22
As someone who's viewed many suicide videos in my lifetime, I think I'd be pretty okay with it.
I think it's nice to be able to view the aftermath and the "doing" of various methods doesn't matter if I'm the one being viewed.
I'll be dead anyway!
I think it's nice to be able to view the aftermath and the "doing" of various methods doesn't matter if I'm the one being viewed.
I'll be dead anyway!
zeek
omg mokocchi
- Oct 18, 2023
- 138
i would not like it
if you had saw me killing myself, you would only see the my actions and act of suicide
not the reasoning or motive behind it.
id rather someone look into why I did it instead of just watching me do it.
if you had saw me killing myself, you would only see the my actions and act of suicide
not the reasoning or motive behind it.
id rather someone look into why I did it instead of just watching me do it.
fishlover
in the end, nothing matters
- Sep 17, 2023
- 125
i have some mixed feelings. i dont think id care too much, afterall id be dead. but i would hate it if my face was shown in the video, or if the video lead others to discover things about me, like my private life and personal information.
ive thought about streaming my suicide, because deep down i crave some sort of recognition, for people to know who i am in some way- and it would most certaintly end up on a gore site. i guess if i go through with that then, what happens, happens.
ive thought about streaming my suicide, because deep down i crave some sort of recognition, for people to know who i am in some way- and it would most certaintly end up on a gore site. i guess if i go through with that then, what happens, happens.
imissmykitten
heart rot
- May 7, 2023
- 71
yeah, just seeing how they treated the man who shot himself live was honestly sickening. making constant jokes about him etc. but the suicide note, there's less chances of people mocking it and it'd be more genuine.
technically i'd be too dead to care but, i wouldn't want it.
Boudika
Trauma? Oh you mean reason why I'm hilarious
- Aug 22, 2023
- 155
Good. I wish my death would go viral so that people could start doing investigations about who I was, what happened, etc. It would be nice to become an gore mystery like Funky Town, for example (no, I don't want to die like man in this video. Just i wish my death will be that mysterious and viral)
narval
Enlightened
- Jan 22, 2020
- 1,188
Unhumanly.
Recovery are not the winner.
- Feb 24, 2023
- 256
Well... Dang? I won't even be conscious or in the same world anymore to even have any reaction, so ..
It doesn't really matter
It doesn't really matter
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I wouldn't care about being on gore site. I don't feel anything towards strangers and don't care what they think. Their comments will be impersonal, anyway.
I would want, however, my nosy and gossipy neighbours to know nothing about what happened. Not because it'll affect me being dead, but they don't deserve to be given another fresh story to gass about for months to come. Also, my partner will be getting a lot of unwanted attention, probing looks and questions, and he doesn't deserve it.
I would want, however, my nosy and gossipy neighbours to know nothing about what happened. Not because it'll affect me being dead, but they don't deserve to be given another fresh story to gass about for months to come. Also, my partner will be getting a lot of unwanted attention, probing looks and questions, and he doesn't deserve it.
