Recently there was a bug in this forum and posts from 10 days were deleted. Moreover I think for many people private conversations were bugged and some deleted (?) I don't know the details of the latter one
I tried to reconstruct which threads of mine are gone. I gave someone a compliment in this time period which I was happy about. The post is gone now but I hope the person still remembers it. So far I did not re-write them. It feels a little bit shallow because there is the fear the new versions cannot compete with the origional ones.
It hurt me that these posts are gone. There were several threads I put my heart into and I felt like I nailed it. I tried to search for them in internet archives but without success. However the pain got less with the time passing. Gladly it was only a short period of time. I could imagine when messages with/from dead members were deleted the pain can be quite tormenting.
But how much pain would be there if all posts were suddely gone? There are attacks on this forum and it does not feel completely unrealistic. There are several scenarios that either this forum gets taken down (which feels unlikely for me) or somehow just the posts are deleted.
I had two feelings about it. All my threads feel like a very long suicide note for me. Especially the ones where I describe the mental anguish, the abuse and bullying. I document the injustice that was done to me and it sometimes feels empowering to share my story uncensored. Moreover when I am dead my posts will continue to exist and people might ask themselves: Who was this guy noname223? I can relate to many of his posts but why did he write so many threads. (I think it is partially pathological but there are more reasons for it). So I feel like there will/would be a ghost of me that keeps on living when people read my posts. Lol.
At the same time there were also advantages if everything was deleted. It would increase the privacy and make it way harder to be identified eventually. Of course there are many internet archives but not every single post gets captured and it makes it harder to find information. Who spends his freetime to make research on random members in internet archives from a forum that was taken down several years (in such a scenario).
It would certainly feel like a big bang if everything was deleted. However I prefer that this forum exists so that I can vent over the abilitiy to show past posts of mine. So deleting all posts would be pretty pretty painful but I could live with it eventually. Instead living without this forum and the community would be way worse.
I tried to reconstruct which threads of mine are gone. I gave someone a compliment in this time period which I was happy about. The post is gone now but I hope the person still remembers it. So far I did not re-write them. It feels a little bit shallow because there is the fear the new versions cannot compete with the origional ones.
It hurt me that these posts are gone. There were several threads I put my heart into and I felt like I nailed it. I tried to search for them in internet archives but without success. However the pain got less with the time passing. Gladly it was only a short period of time. I could imagine when messages with/from dead members were deleted the pain can be quite tormenting.
But how much pain would be there if all posts were suddely gone? There are attacks on this forum and it does not feel completely unrealistic. There are several scenarios that either this forum gets taken down (which feels unlikely for me) or somehow just the posts are deleted.
I had two feelings about it. All my threads feel like a very long suicide note for me. Especially the ones where I describe the mental anguish, the abuse and bullying. I document the injustice that was done to me and it sometimes feels empowering to share my story uncensored. Moreover when I am dead my posts will continue to exist and people might ask themselves: Who was this guy noname223? I can relate to many of his posts but why did he write so many threads. (I think it is partially pathological but there are more reasons for it). So I feel like there will/would be a ghost of me that keeps on living when people read my posts. Lol.
At the same time there were also advantages if everything was deleted. It would increase the privacy and make it way harder to be identified eventually. Of course there are many internet archives but not every single post gets captured and it makes it harder to find information. Who spends his freetime to make research on random members in internet archives from a forum that was taken down several years (in such a scenario).
It would certainly feel like a big bang if everything was deleted. However I prefer that this forum exists so that I can vent over the abilitiy to show past posts of mine. So deleting all posts would be pretty pretty painful but I could live with it eventually. Instead living without this forum and the community would be way worse.
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