Finalnight

Finalnight

Cbting 07/03/24, love you all.
Aug 16, 2023
214
9 out of 10 for me
 
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Suicidebydeath

Suicidebydeath

No chances to be happy - dead inside
Nov 25, 2021
3,559
7-9, it could be worse. A lot of people envy me, but they have no idea of the hell I've been through. I could also have gone through even worse. I could also have had no happy things happen to me at all. So for at least 3-4 reasons, it could be worse.

The combination of things that happened have been quite unfair, I would say really unlucky at times, like a curse sometimes. I wonder how it feels for other people.
 
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Seered Doom

Seered Doom

A nihilist going through an unrelinquished Hell
Sep 9, 2023
911
8/10 and I do not wish to explain nor expand upon this.
 
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Mitsumi

Mitsumi

Student
Dec 23, 2023
108
8
 
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Slow_Farewell

Slow_Farewell

Warlock
Dec 19, 2023
709
hmm... by my own assessment it's a 9, but logically speaking it could go up or down if the criteria was adjusted. it's just my own assessment.
 
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UKscotty

Doesn't read PMs
May 20, 2021
2,450
About a 2 I think, life has been very fair. I have met some incredible doctors and nurses who have tried to help.

Used to have lots of friends etc, good upbringing and enjoyed school.

All until my first meeting with depression at about 15.. downhill from there.

I have never managed to stay well for more than a few months at a time since.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
3,790
8/10
 
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Argo

Specialist
May 19, 2018
360
This isn't very easy to answer. I'm lucky in the sense that I didn't go through the worst experiences human beings have gone through. There are many worst case scenarios, long periods of torture, sexual violence, war, genocide, which some unfortunate beings had to experience. The worst cases of sadism, or predators who ruin your life, or just random bad luck with health which ensures a life of horrible pain and isolation. That's our world. Or even where people were lucky, had great lives, built the relationships of dreams, but then you their kids or partner or family in some really sickening way. None of that happened to me(yet), it was more generic. I got to experience several peak human experiences. I'm very grateful for that. There was still lots of abuse and pain and negative experiences. It was despite constant struggle and confusion that I stumbled into those peak human experiences.

I guess it's just very difficult to get over the egocentrism of one's potential vs. one's actual position/mobility in life. In that sense life feels deeply unfair-- when you know how much more was possible, or your values just don't match with the sorts of things the world rewards. Some people just find success and it's through luck, ultimately, everything in this world is luck and that's inherently unfair. If you know this, then the world will only seem rigged, and this will grate at you constantly insofar as you're unable to get over it.

It's hard to put a number on this, so I won't. It just feels like I was robbed by a continuous stream of bad luck, which is true for most people. You don't have to be one of the unluckiest people to have ever lived to still be very unlucky in this world. Most people born here really just seem like cases of human sacrifice more than anything else.
 
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cold_severance

Student
Dec 11, 2023
139
8/10. born in a defunct family and surrounded by filth.
 
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leavingthesoultrap

leavingthesoultrap

(ᴗ_ ᴗ。)
Nov 25, 2023
1,212
10 my existence is a cruel joke. But it wont go on for much longer
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,183
Life has been unfair to me since I'm a neurodivergent living in a neurotypical world and I'm forced to continue existing in a world which I don't get any pleasures in. That said, beyond that, it isn't life being unfair to me but rather just my brain not liking life for what it is. So overall, I guess I'd give it a 4 out of 10 as, whilst my autism and other issues contributed to me being lonely and struggling to even get employed for an entry level job, the unfairness that I experience is only just me reacting extremely from roughly the same amounts of hardship and suffering that most people experience
 
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onbekend

onbekend

Experienced
Jan 14, 2024
266
A year or two ago? I would say it's a 5/10. Now it feels like it's bumped up to a 8-9/10 all of the sudden for no apparent reason. I just want so desperately to die, I thirst for it and I need it.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,894
Just the fact that I exist is enough to make it a 10 for me, there's nothing fair about being so harmfully burdened with the ability to exist, it's very unfair how I was forced to exist when never existing at all could have prevented all the meaningless, unnecessary suffering that existing causes. And it's especially unfair how suicide is so harmfully made inaccessible even know I never consented to this existence and I'm not obligated to continue, existence is far too cruel, there is so much cruelty in being unable to easily cease existing in peace.
 
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pilotviolin

pilotviolin

looking to the horizon
Jan 27, 2024
361
0-2 i dont think anything too awful has happened to me and i have it very easy im just unlucky and im so unsure on how its possible i could come to feel like this or how i let this happen. i have logical answers, but it still feels a bit absurd for myself to want to end it.
 
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Abyssal

Abyssal

Probably gonna die soon maybe?
Nov 26, 2023
1,331
3. The only unfairness is my genetics, otherwise I did everything to myself.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,254
2-3
 
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throneofdispair03

throneofdispair03

is a mistake
Jan 10, 2024
236
Like a 2. It's more of me being the problem rather than the world
 
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caninecomposer

caninecomposer

Unappreciated artist
Dec 18, 2023
142
+1 for being alive at all. +1 for being born into extreme barely-survivable poverty. +1 for being born into abusive torture. +1 for having to endure that abuse for year after year. +1 for being forced to attend abusive school systems with corrupt adults that hated and harmed children. +1 for small-town corrupt law enforcement allowing it to happen. +1 for existing in an anti-LGBT society. +1 for never finding a single friend I can relate to. +1 for being laid off and unwanted in the job market. +1 for not having the right to a peaceful end. I could go on for quite a while, but that's already 10/10.
 
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Labyrinth

Labyrinth

There is no escaping the burden of existence
Jan 8, 2024
217
3/10 I created my own hell, everything could have been easier.
 
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SeaBreeze

SeaBreeze

Suicideation?
Jul 11, 2023
146
5
I've been fairly productive and provided for, but worked with high amperage DC power for too long, getting shocked enough to forget.
 
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funnyjoy

Looking to go
Jan 13, 2024
27
4, most of the issues I've had were from me being clueless or just generally stupid and ruining a good thing
 
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brokeandbroken

Enlightened
Apr 18, 2023
1,047
This is such a loaded question.. Like what's the scale? Is 1) like being born in North Korea because if it is then I am at 1... Or is it more given the country you are born in how do you stack up if so still complicated. That said given my current life situation I am at a 10....
 
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beaten96

beaten96

Member
Jan 26, 2024
48
20.. my stuff is pretty bad.. people act insane towards me. Used me.. abused me.. raped me.. stole from me.. lied to and about me.. gaslit within and inch of life.. my family is nothing but a crock of bullshit. They isolated me from life and everything on purpose to hurt me worse.. my ex husbands did the same. People constantly attack me out of nowhere and unprovoked.. project all their mommy issues on to me.. well mommy is about to off herself.. they can go bother the next bitch who likely never gave a fuck either..
 
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BlazingBob

BlazingBob

I'm still here b/c of my dogs
Oct 28, 2021
602
10 because of being born to 2 narcissists who resented my existence and now dealing with a body that tortures me every minute of every day. Fuck this life. I truly wish I were never born, or followed through with ctb when I was in my 20s. My dip shit ass actually had hope things could get better.
 
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carnivalforone

carnivalforone

Experienced
Sep 29, 2023
244
7-9, it could be worse. A lot of people envy me, but they have no idea of the hell I've been through. I could also have gone through even worse. I could also have had no happy things happen to me at all. So for at least 3-4 reasons, it could be worse.

The combination of things that happened have been quite unfair, I would say really unlucky at times, like a curse sometimes. I wonder how it feels for other people.
agreed
 
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FujoshiNeet

FujoshiNeet

✌️ you are mentally ill ✌️
Jan 21, 2024
105
9. From the age of 3 my life has been a horror.
 
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DarkDays97

Member
Jan 27, 2024
6
I'd say about a 9. Feels like a 10 but I'm sure it could be worse. I've been nicknamed "mr unlucky" because everything I do, something always happens to me. Life has been cruel since as young as I can remember. Growing up alone. Having a mum who showed nothing but violence and neglect. Every job I get, I work my ass off and bob who does the bare minimum gets the praise and promotions. So yeah. a 9
 
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haibane

haibane

Reki
Sep 27, 2023
258
9. Since childhood my life has been a joke
 
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