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random324ddm
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- Nov 28, 2023
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Hello everyone,
I suffer from depressive episodes since my teenage years. Sometimes they last a few weeks, sometimes a few years. So far, any attempt of medication has failed.
A few month ago, I found out that the thought of death feels comforting. To be more specific, the thougt of being able to kill myself feels uplifting and comforting. Its taking back at least a tiny bit of control.
Unfortunatly, neither SN nor barbiturates are accessible in my country. However, I got my hand on 800mg of oxycodone in the form of oxycontin.
I heard (and read in the PPHB) that Opiods can be a reliable and comfortable end of life agent, but its not very extensive on oxycodone.
Does anybody here know how much Oxycodone I have to take for a reliable death? I'am afraid about vomiting, do I have to add an antiemetic?
That aside, I'am worried about the overall expirience. On the one hand, many opiod deaths are described as as peaceful as it can be. On the other hand, respiratory depression is described as painful,
anxiety inducing and one of the worst things to have.
TLDR:
I would like to know how I can use Oxycodone to end my life in a peaceful way and if other substances are needed.
FYI:
I never took any drugs other than alcohol. Thats why I think there is no tolerance for opiods.
I'am thankful for every suggestion or well meant advice.
I suffer from depressive episodes since my teenage years. Sometimes they last a few weeks, sometimes a few years. So far, any attempt of medication has failed.
A few month ago, I found out that the thought of death feels comforting. To be more specific, the thougt of being able to kill myself feels uplifting and comforting. Its taking back at least a tiny bit of control.
Unfortunatly, neither SN nor barbiturates are accessible in my country. However, I got my hand on 800mg of oxycodone in the form of oxycontin.
I heard (and read in the PPHB) that Opiods can be a reliable and comfortable end of life agent, but its not very extensive on oxycodone.
Does anybody here know how much Oxycodone I have to take for a reliable death? I'am afraid about vomiting, do I have to add an antiemetic?
That aside, I'am worried about the overall expirience. On the one hand, many opiod deaths are described as as peaceful as it can be. On the other hand, respiratory depression is described as painful,
anxiety inducing and one of the worst things to have.
TLDR:
I would like to know how I can use Oxycodone to end my life in a peaceful way and if other substances are needed.
FYI:
I never took any drugs other than alcohol. Thats why I think there is no tolerance for opiods.
I'am thankful for every suggestion or well meant advice.