nitrogenous
Just wanna break free of all suffering
- Dec 26, 2025
- 326
Every time I have an exam, I always convince myself (and even others) that I will fail, causing so much stress and suicidality only for me to unexpectedly get really good marks. Because of it though, I feel like no one believes me anymore that I might fail my upcoming exams and yet no matter what people say about me and my "intelligence", these feelings never go away. This has also now snowballed into anxiety which causes me to avoid studying and also not be able to focus on my studies, strengthening the argument that I might fail my upcoming exams. I can't keep on living like this and telling myself to end my life if I do fail.. I want to stop feeling this way but I don't know how…