How to say goodbye

[Jamesun]

I think I've decided to end it all, to die once and for all. I don't know the method yet, although I think I'll opt for hanging myself. I can't find a reason to stay here, I'm not good at anything and I'm not useful, but there's something that worries me: how to leave without hurting the few people who care about me, It causes me anxiety just thinking about the suffering I will cause them when I do it, that they might think they could help me even though I believe the opposite. I would like to know if there is any way to prevent them from suffering. I thought about simply making them hate me or something similar, or just disappearing without a trace and dying far away from anyone who knew me.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I don't think there is any way to spare them pain.
I wish I could do the same. If you choose to leave a note, you can try to explain there is nothing they could have done to change your mind.
I also wish I could just disappear but there will still be the pain of not knowing what happened to you.
I wish you the best whatever you decide to do.

 

[Nolongerlive]

You can't do anything to ease their suffering, unless u don't ctb.

Just don't let them witness your going and choose a more peaceful method. That will reduce the pain.

Time will slowly heal them.

 

[Phyreen]

I face the same dilemma. Sometimes, I just feel so torn up with guilt about it. I've sobbed at night thinking about the pain that'll follow my family for the rest of their lives. But what am I to do? I just don't know. I don't know.

 

[Jamesun]

I don't think there is any way to spare them pain.
I wish I could do the same. If you choose to leave a note, you can try to explain there is nothing they could have done to change your mind.
I also wish I could just disappear but there will still be the pain of not knowing what happened to you.
I wish you the best whatever you decide to do.

I also considered the possibility of writing a note explaining everything, but I'm not good with words or expressing what I feel.

 

[Rainork]

Goodbyes are one of the hardest things imo so you're not alone in the struggle.
As has already been said unfortunately there isn't really anything you can do to stop their pain only take steps to lessen it.
Writing notes is good one for sure- even if you're not great with words I don't think that will matter to those receivinh it or that the words are main thing with a note (especially if you're writing it for them more than yourself) - it gives your loved ones something to hold onto that came from you. The same goes with giving away belongings.
Ultimately, the only way to avoid causing them pain at all is to carry on living and hold that pain yourself. It really sucks but as is living with this pain.
If you ever need someone to talk to my messages are open. 🕊

 

[Jamesun]

Goodbyes are one of the hardest things imo so you're not alone in the struggle.
As has already been said unfortunately there isn't really anything you can do to stop their pain only take steps to lessen it.
Writing notes is good one for sure- even if you're not great with words I don't think that will matter to those receivinh it or that the words are main thing with a note (especially if you're writing it for them more than yourself) - it gives your loved ones something to hold onto that came from you. The same goes with giving away belongings.
Ultimately, the only way to avoid causing them pain at all is to carry on living and hold that pain yourself. It really sucks but as is living with this pain.
If you ever need someone to talk to my messages are open. 🕊

Thank you, seriously, although it's really hard to say goodbye and I don't know, it's not like I want to keep feeling so much pain every day.