How to pass time??

[hazelmoon]

I'm planning on ctb within the next 2 months. Hopefully around the end of September. Ideally I would want to do it asap but due to external factors I'll have to wait.

I'm so miserable and lonely and depressed. I have no friends, no family, no partner, no pets, no nothing. I spend my days at work or in bed watching tv.

What can I possibly do to make this next month or 2 easier?? It feels impossible to keep going like this that long but I have no choice. I've listened to a couple audiobooks and finished a couple shows but it's still really hard to deal with life at the moment. I'm just sooo lonely and summer is the worst season for me cause everyone is going out and having fun with their friends and the most memorable & exciting moment of my summer was when I drove 4 hours to have lunch at my uncle's house and then drove 4 hours back home (cause we are both very lonely people.) is there anything that could possibly make it a little easier until my time comes??

 

[ctb_warrior]

I'm planning on ctb within the next 2 months. Hopefully around the end of September. Ideally I would want to do it asap but due to external factors I'll have to wait.

I'm so miserable and lonely and depressed. I have no friends, no family, no partner, no pets, no nothing. I spend my days at work or in bed watching tv.

What can I possibly do to make this next month or 2 easier?? It feels impossible to keep going like this that long but I have no choice. I've listened to a couple audiobooks and finished a couple shows but it's still really hard to deal with life at the moment. I'm just sooo lonely and summer is the worst season for me cause everyone is going out and having fun with their friends and the most memorable & exciting moment of my summer was when I drove 4 hours to have lunch at my uncle's house and then drove 4 hours back home (cause we are both very lonely people.) is there anything that could possibly make it a little easier until my time comes??

Fun stuff to do are:
Watch movies of your favourite genre
Play games like PUBG, ludo, Uno, monopoly, that are very engaging
If you know any social app in your city where you can find people to meet or may be date , that can be engaging

 

[hazelmoon]

Fun stuff to do are:
Watch movies of your favourite genre
Play games like PUBG, ludo, Uno, monopoly, that are very engaging
If you know any social app in your city where you can find people to meet or may be date , that can be engaging

Idk why I didn't think to play games. Lol I'll go look in the App Store now to see what interesting stuff they have on there now. I haven't played any games in ages

 

[khora]

I'm planning on ctb within the next 2 months. Hopefully around the end of September. Ideally I would want to do it asap but due to external factors I'll have to wait.

I'm so miserable and lonely and depressed. I have no friends, no family, no partner, no pets, no nothing. I spend my days at work or in bed watching tv.

What can I possibly do to make this next month or 2 easier?? It feels impossible to keep going like this that long but I have no choice. I've listened to a couple audiobooks and finished a couple shows but it's still really hard to deal with life at the moment. I'm just sooo lonely and summer is the worst season for me cause everyone is going out and having fun with their friends and the most memorable & exciting moment of my summer was when I drove 4 hours to have lunch at my uncle's house and then drove 4 hours back home (cause we are both very lonely people.) is there anything that could possibly make it a little easier until my time comes??

I'd get a ps5 personally if you're stuck at home. A good one - watch a new movie. Horror movies are my favorite.
Read into stuff you've never read about like spirituality, what happens after death, philosophy etc. Adopt a new perspective to life, see it from a new perspective.
Watch war footage or gore that's fun, learn about serial killers, read books, online pdfs etc. Fuck around. Get into a new genre of music, fuck someone, make someone fall for you/fall for someone, play around with what's in your head, push your own limits, see something new and taste it.. if you have guns go out and shoot them, maybe enlist in the army as a last effort to push towards something? if you have a car go drive out to the forests/rural areas, experience something new even if you're numb just for the fuck of it. Buy a cat buy a dog, get a fucking pet spider or a snake, you'll be dead anyway..
Try new drugs, maybe try high doses of mushrooms, edibles, and if you can get psychedelics try them. Go Hike, camp out, learn basic survival skills, travel while you're still free, go anywhere, just don't stay in one place for too long.

 

[ctb_warrior]

Idk why I didn't think to play games. Lol I'll go look in the App Store now to see what interesting stuff they have on there now. I haven't played any games in ages

I personally find ludo and monopoly very engaging..
You'll not even realise when a lot of time has been passed i was suicidal when i was in the UK. And i had already failed psh. I had to pass a lot of time, i would use these two games to pass my time..
You can choose to read comics or may be movies or books or music, anything that makes your mind tick.

I'd get a ps5 personally if you're stuck at home. A good one - watch a new movie. Horror movies are my favorite.
Read into stuff you've never read about like spirituality, what happens after death, philosophy etc. Adopt a new perspective to life, see it from a new perspective.
Watch war footage or gore that's fun, learn about serial killers, read books, online pdfs etc. Fuck around. Get into a new genre of music, fuck someone, make someone fall for you/fall for someone, play around with what's in your head, push your own limits, see something new and taste it.. if you have guns go out and shoot them, maybe enlist in the army as a last effort to push towards something? if you have a car go drive out to the forests/rural areas, experience something new even if you're numb just for the fuck of it. Buy a cat buy a dog, get a fucking pet spider or a snake, you'll be dead anyway..
Try new drugs, maybe try high doses of mushrooms, edibles, and if you can get psychedelics try them. Go Hike, camp out, learn basic survival skills, travel while you're still free, go anywhere, just don't stay in one place for too long.

Haha you've mentioned a great variety of stuff. I wanna try mushroom and psychedelics.. But it's difficult to find them in India :(

I'd get a ps5 personally if you're stuck at home. A good one - watch a new movie. Horror movies are my favorite.
Read into stuff you've never read about like spirituality, what happens after death, philosophy etc. Adopt a new perspective to life, see it from a new perspective.
Watch war footage or gore that's fun, learn about serial killers, read books, online pdfs etc. Fuck around. Get into a new genre of music, fuck someone, make someone fall for you/fall for someone, play around with what's in your head, push your own limits, see something new and taste it.. if you have guns go out and shoot them, maybe enlist in the army as a last effort to push towards something? if you have a car go drive out to the forests/rural areas, experience something new even if you're numb just for the fuck of it. Buy a cat buy a dog, get a fucking pet spider or a snake, you'll be dead anyway..
Try new drugs, maybe try high doses of mushrooms, edibles, and if you can get psychedelics try them. Go Hike, camp out, learn basic survival skills, travel while you're still free, go anywhere, just don't stay in one place for too long.

Haha you've mentioned a great variety of stuff. I wanna try mushroom and psychedelics.. But it's difficult to find them in India :(

 

[khora]

I personally find ludo and monopoly very engaging..
You'll not even realise when a lot of time has been passed i was suicidal when i was in the UK. And i had already failed psh. I had to pass a lot of time, i would use these two games to pass my time..
You can choose to read comics or may be movies or books or music, anything that makes your mind tick.

Haha you've mentioned a great variety of stuff. I wanna try mushroom and psychedelics.. But it's difficult to find them in India :(

Haha you've mentioned a great variety of stuff. I wanna try mushroom and psychedelics.. But it's difficult to find them in India :(

Maybe look into it, do research if you're interested.
Take a flight out of your country if you can one day even, lots of possibilities in other countries.
Make online contacts and see if you can find people who can help you with that in their proper communities or just ask around; maybe even a ayahuasca? I think many people should try that out.

 

[ctb_warrior]

Maybe look into it, do research if you're interested.
Take a flight out of your country if you can one day even, lots of possibilities in other countries.
Make online contacts and see if you can find people who can help you with that in their proper communities or just ask around; maybe even a ayahuasca? I think many people should try that out.

I tried to contact everyone in my circle who could have helped me procure anything of that sort. And i contacted someone i met on quora, i got scammed lol flying out of the country i can't even go to the next street without permission. Though i have to go to my office tomorrow so that's some window to move out of the house.

 

[kirillbledny]

I tried to contact everyone in my circle who could have helped me procure anything of that sort. And i contacted someone i met on quora, i got scammed lol flying out of the country i can't even go to the next street without permission. Though i have to go to my office tomorrow so that's some window to move out of the house.

If you want, look into LSD analogues like 1P-LSD, 1V-LSD, 1CP-LSD, etc. I personally tried both regular LSD, 1V and 1CP, and they're pretty much exactly the same. Obviously do your own research on it, tripping while suicidal can be dangerous or lead to a bad experience, but I've done it multiple times while actively suicidal and it's always really fun. I mention the analogues because they're supposedly prodrugs, meaning they change into regular LSD in your body, but they're often unregulated and for sale online due to governments banning only the exact LSD chemical.

 

[ctb_warrior]

If you want, look into LSD analogues like 1P-LSD, 1V-LSD, 1CP-LSD, etc. I personally tried both regular LSD, 1V and 1CP, and they're pretty much exactly the same. Obviously do your own research on it, tripping while suicidal can be dangerous or lead to a bad experience, but I've done it multiple times while actively suicidal and it's always really fun. I mention the analogues because they're supposedly prodrugs, meaning they change into regular LSD in your body, but they're often unregulated and for sale online due to governments banning only the exact LSD chemical.

That's interesting info I'll check it out.
I have always wanted to try tripping. I hope they are available in India legally. It's difficult to find a trustworthy paddy.

 

[kirillbledny]

That's interesting info I'll check it out.
I have always wanted to try tripping. I hope they are available in India legally. It's difficult to find a trustworthy paddy.

Yeah, most of my trips were actually off these research chems, cuz even when I bought it from the street it didn't work half the time, and the other half it was definitely laced with meth or something lol

 

[ctb_warrior]

Yeah, most of my trips were actually off these research chems, cuz even when I bought it from the street it didn't work half the time, and the other half it was definitely laced with meth or something lol

Didn't know they do it in the West as well. Here they give impure stuff unless you know a good paddy who keeps Good quality stuff

 

[kirillbledny]

Didn't know they do it in the West as well. Here they give impure stuff unless you know a good paddy who keeps Good quality stuff

Depends on where, the Czech republic is famous for meth and it's the easiest drug to get here, so a lot of people lace with it, the guy also wasn't trustworthy at all, he sold me shitty weed before but I didn't know anyone else at the time and was desperate

 

[ctb_warrior]

Depends on where, the Czech republic is famous for meth and it's the easiest drug to get here, so a lot of people lace with it, the guy also wasn't trustworthy at all, he sold me shitty weed before but I didn't know anyone else at the time and was desperate

Ohh, in India, ganja is easy to obtain I tried it, but i didn't get any effect on my mind. I scored ganja from a lady in a shady lane, she denied to give it to me first. She thought i could be an authority. I grew my beard and went there again. She didn't recognise me and gave it.
But all the effort were waste :(

 

[kirillbledny]

Ohh, in India, ganja is easy to obtain

I would assume so considering the name "indica" refers to India, interesting it didn't do anything for you loll

 

[ctb_warrior]

I would assume so considering the name "indica" refers to India, interesting it didn't do anything for you loll

Yes indica refers to India. Cannabis indica.
Haha yes, i purchased two packets of that. I used them both back to back.
Interestingly, my father found the packet in my room. Lol i was caught, i lied that i didn't try it

 

[kirillbledny]

Yes indica refers to India. Cannabis indica.
Haha yes, i purchased two packets of that. I used them both back to back.
Interestingly, my father found the packet in my room. Lol i was caught, i lied that i didn't try it

Is there stigma against cannabis use in India?

 

[ctb_warrior]

Is there stigma against cannabis use in India?

There's a version of it, bhaang, it's literally sold in India legally at govt outlets and is distributed as a drink on Holi festival which is the festival of colours, when people play with dry/wet colours and apply colours to each other.
Some people use bhang to deal with GERD.
However, in society, it's still treated as a stigma. I wanted to try bhang but my parents didn't allow me despite me being 18+.
So, when i was living alone, i bought it from govt approved shop and tried it. It did hit me to some extent. I got very hungry and ordered dominos pizza when i was high. I was expecting it to hit more but the effect only lasted a few hours

 

[doneforlife]

I'm planning on ctb within the next 2 months. Hopefully around the end of September. Ideally I would want to do it asap but due to external factors I'll have to wait.

I'm so miserable and lonely and depressed. I have no friends, no family, no partner, no pets, no nothing. I spend my days at work or in bed watching tv.

What can I possibly do to make this next month or 2 easier?? It feels impossible to keep going like this that long but I have no choice. I've listened to a couple audiobooks and finished a couple shows but it's still really hard to deal with life at the moment. I'm just sooo lonely and summer is the worst season for me cause everyone is going out and having fun with their friends and the most memorable & exciting moment of my summer was when I drove 4 hours to have lunch at my uncle's house and then drove 4 hours back home (cause we are both very lonely people.) is there anything that could possibly make it a little easier until my time comes??

Try something you are interested in and that consumes your mental resources. If you are creative may be try creating a piece of music or writing and posting it online for others to read. Engagement helps.

 

[h4ppyhypoxia]

im in the exact same boat as you and its so rough bc ive become so depressed i dont really have interest in anything anymore and i think its helped me to just accept that, im accepting that its painful to wait, but i have to do it, i try to pass the time in my days by watching shows etc but im not going to try and force myself to "make this easy" bc i cant, for me what has helped me is my mindset, each day i get through is 1 day closer to being able to ctb, my attempt failed in july and now im going to have to wait until september, but its been 39 days since my attempt, and i only have to wait 32 days to gather my resources, this means the time i have already waited is longer than the time i am going to have to wait

 

[lilybug02]

Iv been counting down the days until i go i feel a little bit of peace going to the gym its one of my favorite things to do to pass the time until i finally get the courage to end it.