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hazelmoon

hazelmoon

waiting for my bus to arrive
Nov 1, 2023
54
I'm planning on ctb within the next 2 months. Hopefully around the end of September. Ideally I would want to do it asap but due to external factors I'll have to wait.

I'm so miserable and lonely and depressed. I have no friends, no family, no partner, no pets, no nothing. I spend my days at work or in bed watching tv.

What can I possibly do to make this next month or 2 easier?? It feels impossible to keep going like this that long but I have no choice. I've listened to a couple audiobooks and finished a couple shows but it's still really hard to deal with life at the moment. I'm just sooo lonely and summer is the worst season for me cause everyone is going out and having fun with their friends and the most memorable & exciting moment of my summer was when I drove 4 hours to have lunch at my uncle's house and then drove 4 hours back home (cause we are both very lonely people.) is there anything that could possibly make it a little easier until my time comes??
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
416
I'm planning on ctb within the next 2 months. Hopefully around the end of September. Ideally I would want to do it asap but due to external factors I'll have to wait.

I'm so miserable and lonely and depressed. I have no friends, no family, no partner, no pets, no nothing. I spend my days at work or in bed watching tv.

What can I possibly do to make this next month or 2 easier?? It feels impossible to keep going like this that long but I have no choice. I've listened to a couple audiobooks and finished a couple shows but it's still really hard to deal with life at the moment. I'm just sooo lonely and summer is the worst season for me cause everyone is going out and having fun with their friends and the most memorable & exciting moment of my summer was when I drove 4 hours to have lunch at my uncle's house and then drove 4 hours back home (cause we are both very lonely people.) is there anything that could possibly make it a little easier until my time comes??
Fun stuff to do are:
Watch movies of your favourite genre
Play games like PUBG, ludo, Uno, monopoly, that are very engaging
If you know any social app in your city where you can find people to meet or may be date , that can be engaging
 
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hazelmoon

hazelmoon

waiting for my bus to arrive
Nov 1, 2023
54
Fun stuff to do are:
Watch movies of your favourite genre
Play games like PUBG, ludo, Uno, monopoly, that are very engaging
If you know any social app in your city where you can find people to meet or may be date , that can be engaging
Idk why I didn't think to play games. Lol I'll go look in the App Store now to see what interesting stuff they have on there now. I haven't played any games in ages
 
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bloodlet

bloodlet

النعمة والجمال يأمران العالم
Jul 17, 2023
12
I'm planning on ctb within the next 2 months. Hopefully around the end of September. Ideally I would want to do it asap but due to external factors I'll have to wait.

I'm so miserable and lonely and depressed. I have no friends, no family, no partner, no pets, no nothing. I spend my days at work or in bed watching tv.

What can I possibly do to make this next month or 2 easier?? It feels impossible to keep going like this that long but I have no choice. I've listened to a couple audiobooks and finished a couple shows but it's still really hard to deal with life at the moment. I'm just sooo lonely and summer is the worst season for me cause everyone is going out and having fun with their friends and the most memorable & exciting moment of my summer was when I drove 4 hours to have lunch at my uncle's house and then drove 4 hours back home (cause we are both very lonely people.) is there anything that could possibly make it a little easier until my time comes??
I'd get a ps5 personally if you're stuck at home. A good one - watch a new movie. Horror movies are my favorite.
Read into stuff you've never read about like spirituality, what happens after death, philosophy etc. Adopt a new perspective to life, see it from a new perspective.
Watch war footage or gore that's fun, learn about serial killers, read books, online pdfs etc. Fuck around. Get into a new genre of music, fuck someone, make someone fall for you/fall for someone, play around with what's in your head, push your own limits, see something new and taste it.. if you have guns go out and shoot them, maybe enlist in the army as a last effort to push towards something? if you have a car go drive out to the forests/rural areas, experience something new even if you're numb just for the fuck of it. Buy a cat buy a dog, get a fucking pet spider or a snake, you'll be dead anyway..
Try new drugs, maybe try high doses of mushrooms, edibles, and if you can get psychedelics try them. Go Hike, camp out, learn basic survival skills, travel while you're still free, go anywhere, just don't stay in one place for too long.
 
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ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
416
Idk why I didn't think to play games. Lol I'll go look in the App Store now to see what interesting stuff they have on there now. I haven't played any games in ages
I personally find ludo and monopoly very engaging..
You'll not even realise when a lot of time has been passed😂 i was suicidal when i was in the UK. And i had already failed psh. I had to pass a lot of time, i would use these two games to pass my time..
You can choose to read comics or may be movies or books or music, anything that makes your mind tick.
I'd get a ps5 personally if you're stuck at home. A good one - watch a new movie. Horror movies are my favorite.
Read into stuff you've never read about like spirituality, what happens after death, philosophy etc. Adopt a new perspective to life, see it from a new perspective.
Watch war footage or gore that's fun, learn about serial killers, read books, online pdfs etc. Fuck around. Get into a new genre of music, fuck someone, make someone fall for you/fall for someone, play around with what's in your head, push your own limits, see something new and taste it.. if you have guns go out and shoot them, maybe enlist in the army as a last effort to push towards something? if you have a car go drive out to the forests/rural areas, experience something new even if you're numb just for the fuck of it. Buy a cat buy a dog, get a fucking pet spider or a snake, you'll be dead anyway..
Try new drugs, maybe try high doses of mushrooms, edibles, and if you can get psychedelics try them. Go Hike, camp out, learn basic survival skills, travel while you're still free, go anywhere, just don't stay in one place for too long.
Haha you've mentioned a great variety of stuff. I wanna try mushroom and psychedelics.. But it's difficult to find them in India :(
I'd get a ps5 personally if you're stuck at home. A good one - watch a new movie. Horror movies are my favorite.
Read into stuff you've never read about like spirituality, what happens after death, philosophy etc. Adopt a new perspective to life, see it from a new perspective.
Watch war footage or gore that's fun, learn about serial killers, read books, online pdfs etc. Fuck around. Get into a new genre of music, fuck someone, make someone fall for you/fall for someone, play around with what's in your head, push your own limits, see something new and taste it.. if you have guns go out and shoot them, maybe enlist in the army as a last effort to push towards something? if you have a car go drive out to the forests/rural areas, experience something new even if you're numb just for the fuck of it. Buy a cat buy a dog, get a fucking pet spider or a snake, you'll be dead anyway..
Try new drugs, maybe try high doses of mushrooms, edibles, and if you can get psychedelics try them. Go Hike, camp out, learn basic survival skills, travel while you're still free, go anywhere, just don't stay in one place for too long.
Haha you've mentioned a great variety of stuff. I wanna try mushroom and psychedelics.. But it's difficult to find them in India :(
 

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