Help How to overcome the fear of trains?

[narcluciddreams]

You know what for, obviously.

 

[Someone123]

A former train driver (he said) posted that he hit 14 people trying to ctb while he was driving- they all hit an average a couple a year or so. 10 of the 14 died, for about a 70% success rate, though one took four days in the hospital to die. People wh survive this method often lose limbs, have brain damage, etc. SO there are good reasons to fear this method, though all methods have risks.

 

[narcluciddreams]

A former train driver (he said) posted that he hit 14 people trying to ctb while he was driving- they all hit an average a couple a year or so. 10 of the 14 died, for about a 70% success rate, though one took four days in the hospital to die. People wh survive this method often lose limbs, have brain damage, etc. SO there are good reasons to fear this method, though all methods have risks.

Then what do you suggest?

 

[theboy]

What specifically scares you?

 

[narcluciddreams]

What specifically scares you?

Failure.

 

[lebrodude]

Personally I wouldn't go that way.
The cost of failure would be horrific, paralysis, torn limbs.

 

[FuneralCry]

The train method sounds so incredibly terrifying to me, I really doubt that I could ever ctb that way and of course it sounds like something so horrifying failing it. Maybe many of the people who managed to go through with it and succeeded just got so desperate to escape from this hellish world and that gave them the courage. I do admire them a lot.

 

[don't want it]

I think hanging is more secure and faster

 

[theboy]

Failure.

put the head on the edge of the train to decapitate

 

[narcluciddreams]

put the head on the edge of the train to decapitate

I know that much, but I still fear I might survive.

 

[FrozenMango]

I suggest you choose a less scary method. CTB is tough without the complication.

 

[Worndown]

Ride on one. Meet the crew and enjoy the ride. Just do not ask them to kill you.

 

[theboy]

I know that much, but I still fear I might survive.

all method causes fear
is the SI

 

[Salvation_]

I know it's not what the thread is for, but I'll also add to the "Do not go out by train" advice. Risky, traumatizing for others, many things can go wrong. How come you're set on leaving by train?

 

[narcluciddreams]

I know it's not what the thread is for, but I'll also add to the "Do not go out by train" advice. Risky, traumatizing for others, many things can go wrong. How come you're set on leaving by train?

I legit can't buy anything since my transactions are monitored by my parents, every package that arrives is opened and inspected. I don't fucking know what to do no more

 

[Someone123]

Then what do you suggest?

Each person needs to find their own methods depending on their situation and what riskss tehy are willing to take, so you would want to expoore options here- sodium nitrite is a common method here, but it gets complicated with risks of it's own and some difficulties in getting medications, etc. Some people get N, a much harder thing to get, most people can't, and it has a reputation of being more peaceful. Charcoal can be peaceful but sometimes fails and many people don't have a good way to do this method, not having a location that works for this. And on and on. Many people struggle for months or years before deciding on a method, and some recover during this time. It is the biggest struggle here for so many people, deciding on a method and when and where to try this. I hope you can find peace somehow, and if you have some hoipe for recovery you could share about your situation and see if people have ideas that can help.

 

[Why Me?]

Each person needs to find their own methods depending on their situation and what riskss tehy are willing to take, so you would want to expoore options here- sodium nitrite is a common method here, but it gets complicated with risks of it's own and some difficulties in getting medications, etc. Some people get N, a much harder thing to get, most people can't, and it has a reputation of being more peaceful. Charcoal can be peaceful but sometimes fails and many people don't have a good way to do this method, not having a location that works for this. And on and on. Many people struggle for months or years before deciding on a method, and some recover during this time. It is the biggest struggle here for so many people, deciding on a method and when and where to try this. I hope you can find peace somehow, and if you have some hoipe for recovery you could share about your situation and see if people have ideas that can help.

I agree, my method is brutal, and people on this forum don't like it and talk about the risks, but it's the only method I can see myself doing. At this point, I know not to even mention it here. I spoke in detail about it to somebody on the phone from this forum, and told them all 7 people that tried it succeeded, and the person told me that those odds are still not good enough. I've been upset about that ever since that person told me that, because it made me lose so much courage, and I have to now build the courage back up, because it's still my only option.