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Feb 21, 2025
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what do you tell yourself when you stand there looking down?
what do you say to yourself to confirm to yourself that this is the best choice?
any practical tricks also?
for example a weighted vest.

here's the good thing i just realized:
i'm very scared to accidentally hit someone after my fall.
i don't wanna go out with something liek that on my conscience.
so i just realized that if i just stand there for a while, and let people notice me,
then everyone down there will know they should stay away from the area.
because i'm too shy to be screaming "get away!!!"

i actually have a whistle for that purpose, tho.
but that might not be loud enough.

i just gotta, however, jump fast enough before they call someone to bring out the air bag or whatever its called.
this could backfire in two ways:
some "pro lifers" or whatever you wanna call them might want to save me, so they will try to block my jumping spot.

#2... if i don't have the guts and fail the suicide attempt, then i might be forced into some kinda crazy hospital.
and publicly humiliated, nowadays mothersfuckers record everything and post it.
 
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Pale_Rider

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Since I have a fear of heights Idk that I could ever jump, but if I was in enough pain maybe.
 
cait_sith

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Apr 8, 2024
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having people watch you will make it harder I think, at least for me
 
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having people watch you will make it harder I think, at least for me
yeah me too, but it would calm me to be sure that the area is fully clear and they know to stay away
 
mlb

mlb

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Jul 14, 2025
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if you're 100% sure about ctb and you know the spot and the time then i think your fear of being seen won't attribute much.
i've heard that people do not look over the edge, have a sprint start and then jump as far away as possible. could maybe think of it as some exercise or physical education class. also wandering around the area and thinking about ctb will probably prop the SI even more. there's also the option of scouting the place beforehand, just hanging around.

edit: i think if a person is spotted then they might just panic and slip because of the nerves OR they would just stay there without moving and be paralyzed because of the shock. don't know, but probably the latter happens more often,
 
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edit: i think if a person is spotted then they might just panic and slip because of the nerves OR they would just stay there without moving and be paralyzed because of the shock. don't know, but probably the latter happens more often,
sorry, can you elaborate? i must be slow lol. which person would stay there without moving? the watcher from the ground or the one trying to commit suicide?
 
mlb

mlb

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Jul 14, 2025
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sorry, can you elaborate? i must be slow lol. which person would stay there without moving? the watcher from the ground or the one trying to commit suicide?
the one trying to jump* :)