cheems
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- Feb 12, 2024
- 20
I'm this close to buying all that I need to. And once it's here it will only be a matter of time until I get a bad enough day again, and finally get in the bus. But I'm worried.
I'm worried about throwing up. Worried about it not working. Worried about becoming a vegetable. Worried about being paralysed in pain. Worried about failing again.
I'm sure many people here heard of the "quantum immortality" theory. It basically states that as long as there is a possibility for you to continue living, you will. In simpler terms, if there's a chance that you survive a certain event, then in some parallel universe or reality, you will indeed survive. I don't want to cause myself to suffer. I get accused of that too much already.
I wish I could bring myself to believe this is not possible, or that I would acquire (enough?) certainty in a method which will either leave me unscathed, or completely destroy me. Something in-between seems less desirable than my current state. I just want to rest. I never asked for this. I ache for all who are brought to this position, and who will be brought to this position. I unapologetically blame my mother and father. But they are flawed too. They didn't know better. I have to forgive them too. It's just a tragedy. I have to get it done. I just need a little push.
I'm going to sleep today. Nothing else I can do at the moment. I'm eager to know what everyone makes of the Many Worlds Interpretation and quantum immortality.
I'm worried about throwing up. Worried about it not working. Worried about becoming a vegetable. Worried about being paralysed in pain. Worried about failing again.
I'm sure many people here heard of the "quantum immortality" theory. It basically states that as long as there is a possibility for you to continue living, you will. In simpler terms, if there's a chance that you survive a certain event, then in some parallel universe or reality, you will indeed survive. I don't want to cause myself to suffer. I get accused of that too much already.
I wish I could bring myself to believe this is not possible, or that I would acquire (enough?) certainty in a method which will either leave me unscathed, or completely destroy me. Something in-between seems less desirable than my current state. I just want to rest. I never asked for this. I ache for all who are brought to this position, and who will be brought to this position. I unapologetically blame my mother and father. But they are flawed too. They didn't know better. I have to forgive them too. It's just a tragedy. I have to get it done. I just need a little push.
I'm going to sleep today. Nothing else I can do at the moment. I'm eager to know what everyone makes of the Many Worlds Interpretation and quantum immortality.
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