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Bitcoin (BTC):Ethereum (ETH):Monero (XMR):No one can answer that question for you. That would be encouraging you to kill yourself.
Only you can figure this out. Perhaps it isn't what you really want, and that's why you're so frightened - what other possible explanation could there be?
Ending your life is really the end, there's no coming back from it so I'd suggest really thinking about this, long and hard.
If it isn't what you want, look into other ways that could potentially help you. I don't know your situation so I can't give any advice other than mindfulness can be very helpful, and exercising. It takes time to start to feel better.
I didn't think recovery was possible. I was set on killing myself. I had tried countless times. And then everything started shifting recently, my mindset had completely changed. I've worked hard and not given up, and reminded myself these things take time.
I still have pretty terrible days, but my thoughts are no longer to end my life, and I see myself very differently.
I'm aware it could change back, but it's important to focus on the steps you're taking to at least try. Sometimes we can try a few times and fail, but perseverance can take a long time, especially if you've had these thoughts and feelings your entire life, like I did.
I honestly thought the trauma I'd suffered throughout my life would take me, because it nearly had several times, like I said. But I now believe it isn't my time, not yet. Perhaps the same could be said for you, who knows what could happen round the corner. Only you can change it
cali22♡
Banned
- Nov 11, 2023
- 450
Theoretically, it is possible to suppress SI with medication
ijustwishtodie
I have finally found my ultimate bliss
- Oct 29, 2023
- 5,795
For me, I wouldn't be scared if I had a 100% guarantee that I was going to die and that I wouldn't get resuscitated by a random pro lifer asshole.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 48,021
What I personally fear is suffering in this horrific reality, not ceasing to exist, if I had a guaranteed painless method with no risks of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse torture I'd be so relieved, I just want to never exist ever again. I only wish for permanent non-existence where all is finally forgotten about and I'm finally unable to suffer, what terrifies me is how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured by old age with no limit as to how much agony they can feel, existence will always be an abomination to me no matter what.
ZoloftSĂĽchtig
It wasn’t supposed to be like this
- Apr 9, 2023
- 152
I also need to know. I'm thinking about drinking alcohol before I try and hang myself. Maybe that will make it a bit easier for myself
FadingSnowFake
Enlightened
- Nov 25, 2024
- 1,823
The pain of being alive should outweigh the scariness of ctb. Focusing on how empty the world is (if it is for you as a person), and how no future even seems possible in that blackness should leave no doubt that to ctb is the only option.
L'absent
Banned
- Aug 18, 2024
- 1,390
You need to remove your deeply held pro-life beliefs and replace them. In another post I explained this in quite detail.
nomoredolor
Specialist
- Sep 7, 2024
- 369
Benzo + looking at photos and thinking about my deceased love. Pretending he's with me
AnnaLike someone else mentioned the pain of being alive should out way the fear of death. Whatever the reason you want to ctb just focus on that. For me I just keep focusing on all my pain, struggles and failures, loneliness and everything else I've had to deal with. Also how it has never, not once changed, no matter how hard I try. Ctb is really my only option. If I keep living I really don't have a way to bounce back this time. My life is only going to get worse from here. If I need an added push I just looking at the people I once new and how happy they seem in their life on social media. I'm very sensitive to how I look so any even better push would be to post a Pic on roastme subreddit lol.
danny10
Banned
- Jan 8, 2025
- 263
I would think about the opportunities that I missed because of my depression. Also, benzos. They do help.I have found knowledge to be the best solution to fear. Death for us is this big scary thing that no one ever talks about. So, talk about it. Learn about it. Know it. I read up on what physically happens when you die. I watched videos about death and dying (educational ones, not gore). I researched views on the afterlife and thought about what I think lies beyond this life.
I also researched my method and practiced as much as I could. I know everything that is going to happen every step of the way. Now there is no big, scary mystery. It is just a task that needs completing.
human909
Banned
- Dec 30, 2024
- 590
Gustav Hartmann
Enlightened
- Aug 28, 2021
- 1,348
The highest suicide rate has Greenland in the summer. So, no sleep and alcohol could reduce SI.Similar threads
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