Help How to know if you really want to die?

[chopsueylol]

I brought SN (not delivered yet) and my emotions are very intense, impulsive and change quickly, and I'm scared to do a big mistake. How do you know you *really* wants to die?
Sounds like a stupid question but for me is really hard to understand my feelings

 

[Nolongerlive]

Yeah, i have the same feeling as you. Indecisive and becoming too anxious / nervous, and insomnia.

I always asked myself, even though i have no access to some of the popular methods here, i can still use other methods like hanging, jumping , drowning.

i have to solve this issue too.

I brought SN (not delivered yet) and my emotions are very intense, impulsive and change quickly, and I'm scared to do a big mistake. How do you know you *really* wants to die?
Sounds like a stupid question but for me is really hard to understand my feelings

 

[Praestat_Mori]

May I ask you: Why do you wanna die? Is there a solution to the problem that makes you suicidal?

Take your time and consider all options you have.

 

[LastDayOnEarth]

For me at least is when you already cannot envision a future version of yourself, like not even being able to fathom the existance of an older version of you, that's how I knew I wanted to exit

 

[Smiles & Giggles]

For me It's that I've determined suicide to be the logical solution to life, even a happy life. The fact that I'm miserable as fuck makes it even more appealing. There is a train within walking distance of my house, and it taunts me with every blow of it's horn.

 

[hurts2b]

Just because you bought it doesn't mean you have to use it right away or at all. Take some time to reflect about your thoughts and emotions first. Do you have desires other than death, even small ones? Things you want to do before you go? Questions you need answers to?

Assuming you aren't facing immediate external threats, then there's no rush.

When you get the SN consider placing it somewhere you'll have to go out of your way to reach. Or in a safe with a timer and/or multiple passwords. That way you reduce the risk of making an impulsive decision.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

It's very simple: If you have to ask the question, then your answer is NO.

 

[Imausername]

You don't. We don't. No one here actually wants to die. It's no ones plan A. if anything it's a plan Z when all else fails CTB is the one thing u have in ur control to stop the pain or issue that's causing you to feel this way.
People don't jump from a building for fun. They jump when the fire gets too hot. But people will only ever look at the end result and not the fire that pushed us.

 

[SoverignDreamer97]

1. "You cannot please everyone; control the things you can control." ~Suncha Ferreira (Victus Group)/Mark 8:36, Matthew 13:12

2. The grass withers, the flowers fade, because the breath of the Lord blows upon it; surely the people are grass.
The grass withers, the flowers fade, but the word of our God stands forever. (Isaiah 40:7-8)

3. The world hates liabilities, and would rather they not exist, as much as the rules dictate that all life is inherently valuable. (Proverbs 25:17)

Therefore, as much as I desire to live, and that a world without me would be awfully dull and grey, this isn't up to me; if I die, I die; though my father, mother, and the whole world forsake me, the Lord will bring me up. (Esther 4:11, Psalm 27:10)

 

[thehorizons]

If there's absolutely no hope (i.e. no way out) and the only way out is death. I have oral cancer (it's early stage yet and just isolated to my lip) and benzodiazepine-induced neurological dysfunction. If I get surgery, it would effective set my neurological symptoms back (imagine being unable to sleep combined with having no tongue) due to potential paradoxical effects of medication used. On top of that, I've got other issues financial, aging parents that won't be able to take care of me, living in a country abroad away from my friends, etc. When you absolutely stop believing in a tomorrow, religion, God, and feel like you're in a simulation that you'll wake up from. Then I can assure you that's when you know you have to die. I haven't been a perfect person in this life, but I'm not evil. I just hope if there's an afterlife then there's at least some credit from the hell that I'm suffering and some goodness that I've done in this life.