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When are you trying? It looks good.View attachment 16200
Pull up bar drilled into the wall plus static climbing rope. We'll see how it goes.
I need to be provoked, so I'm keeping it there for impulsive moments.When are you trying? It looks good.
I get it. While I will hope for calm, best wishes is things get tense.I need to be provoked, so I'm keeping it there for impulsive moments.
I'm sorryAnother update..... My dad reported me for being suicidal and came home from work with police. I'm being fucking committed.
SI is a huge problem for me aswell. Over the past 2 months I've had atleast 15 attempts where I've just pussied out after like 5-10 seconds of hanging and there's been times where I haven't even tried going through with it even after doing all the steps I seem necessary before I pass on. I honestly can only get off like 3 good tries at a time before I start doubting myself and gradually start hanging for less and less. I'm not sure if I even really want to ctb, at this point I feel like I'm only trying because I know my future is fucked and I'd end up trying to do it in the future anyways. I hope you'll get the encouragement for it whenever you're ready to move on.I've tried almost 20 times and can't overcome my SI. I am so sore today I don't think I can try again. I hate survival instincts.
It still hurts so bad. I think it's because the height of my closet bar and bending over awkwardly.
I'm the same way. I don't even want to try again because I know it won't work. I rarely get the pass out feeling without extreme pain and then a thought will pop in about my family crying and I just can't do it. My life is completely ruined so I know suicide is my only option. I wish you better luck. Maybe whiskey will help. I'm thinking of trying another method.SI is a huge problem for me aswell. Over the past 2 months I've had atleast 15 attempts where I've just pussied out after like 5-10 seconds of hanging and there's been times where I haven't even tried going through with it even after doing all the steps I seem necessary before I pass on. I honestly can only get off like 3 good tries at a time before I start doubting myself and gradually start hanging for less and less. I'm not sure if I even really want to ctb, at this point I feel like I'm only trying because I know my future is fucked and I'd end up trying to do it in the future anyways. I hope you'll get the encouragement for it whenever you're ready to move on.
Were you trying full or partial suspension?I'm the same way. I don't even want to try again because I know it won't work. I rarely get the pass out feeling without extreme pain and then a thought will pop in about my family crying and I just can't do it. My life is completely ruined so I know suicide is my only option. I wish you better luck. Maybe whiskey will help. I'm thinking of trying another method.
I'm starting to think my rope is too thick. It's polypropylene rope about 1/2 in diameter I think. I only got the pass out feeling without bad pain a couple times.
Partial and I just tried again and I got through the dizziness and nothing happens. I don't have enough room for full. I'm throwing the rope over the door and kneeling into it.Were you trying full or partial suspension?
Would an extension cord work? The dog leash i was planning on using got thrown away.
I don't think that would work. I don't have any experience with it but looking back through this thread some people have tried it and said for serious attempts that it probably won't hold your weight. Maybe the big orange ones but I wouldn't try it unless that's all you can get