Help How to get the strength to cut myself?

[TheLakesKrueguer]

For a year I've been puking everything I eat, losing like 100 pounds. Before bulimia, I used to cut myself and drink pills, but now I can't, I just don't have the strength anymore, but I want to do it so bad… Any tips on how to do it without listening to your head "survival thoughts"?

 

[Dainhla]

Idk if you mean cut yourself with CTB purposes or only for SH, but anyways i'd say that for me, it works just doing it once, then repeat the same, each time deeper until I get what I want.
Personally, thinking about all the bad things that have pushed me 'til that point don't work. It's like thinking about the reasons make me feel sadder but also make me feel more tired, so I end giving up the SH trial.

If you search the motivation to do it, just analyse the things that push you to the edge. For me the external things that make me feel bad, don't affect me so seriously as thinking about how awful am I. Thinking of all the things that I did, the bad memories that I created to myself is what truly motivates me to SH.

I don't really think I helped you, but anyways I hope you find what you're searching for.

 

[Valky]

If you don't have the strength then maybe it is for the best.
I don't really see it as a morally right idea to give you any tips on how to find the encouragement to cut again. If you can't do it then there is a reason for it and we are not in the position to tell you otherwise. Sh is an urge and not an achievement but I am sure that you are aware of that.

 

[Sweet Tart]

I'm sorry if you're having a hard time finding relief.

 

[TheLakesKrueguer]

If you don't have the strength then maybe it is for the best.
I don't really see it as a morally right idea to give you any tips on how to find the encouragement to cut again. If you can't do it then there is a reason for it and we are not in the position to tell you otherwise. Sh is an urge and not an achievement but I am sure that you are aware of that.

Yeah, you're right… I wouldn't give any tips for that, I don't know why I am asking for them. :/