I don't like society and the majority of humans except like you guys in this forum (except pro life guys).
Why? BECAUSE they are the biggest reason why I am trapped. I want to leave life. It's time. I had enough of life. Living for (now) 29 consecutive years is enough. I have chronic health issues (major ones: like underweight, and fatigue that comes and goes through the days). I don't have the financial means (under employed and depend on parents) to deal with any further disease or old age diseases.
Life for me as a human sucks as. I know I have some privileges like born in a first world country with one of the best welfare states in the world. But that stuff is interesting for normies, who like life in a sense that they aspire average things. Like having a job, staying in the country your born with and enjoying socializing.
Earning money is so hard for me and I also cannot work in a full time job. I can't concentrate and my anxiety ruins it. Could not sleep at night and got high blood pressure because of that. It also makes me real depressed having a full time job and that thinking of going to sleep to work tomorrow. It's a sad feeling like for example: The feeling of pro life people knowing oneself will die young because of cancer.
How can I with a budget of about 800 USD afford a safe CTB method. I checked many flights and the safest flight to the N holy land in South America costs about 1200 USD.
So I can't work really to earn real money. Not the peanuts I earn now being underemployed with my short online part time job. But I also cannot (which Is more important) travel to South America and fulfill my last important wish to CTB.
I researched this South America CTB method. I got positive feedbacks of people who done it. And the main author of PPEH, which I trust and I highly appreciate dearest in my heart. He recommends it as well.
WHY? Why I am ignored? People talk to me only if they want something of me. F### this world. Or they waste my time with useless talk. Nothing informative. Like NPCs.
Why? BECAUSE they are the biggest reason why I am trapped. I want to leave life. It's time. I had enough of life. Living for (now) 29 consecutive years is enough. I have chronic health issues (major ones: like underweight, and fatigue that comes and goes through the days). I don't have the financial means (under employed and depend on parents) to deal with any further disease or old age diseases.
Life for me as a human sucks as. I know I have some privileges like born in a first world country with one of the best welfare states in the world. But that stuff is interesting for normies, who like life in a sense that they aspire average things. Like having a job, staying in the country your born with and enjoying socializing.
Earning money is so hard for me and I also cannot work in a full time job. I can't concentrate and my anxiety ruins it. Could not sleep at night and got high blood pressure because of that. It also makes me real depressed having a full time job and that thinking of going to sleep to work tomorrow. It's a sad feeling like for example: The feeling of pro life people knowing oneself will die young because of cancer.
How can I with a budget of about 800 USD afford a safe CTB method. I checked many flights and the safest flight to the N holy land in South America costs about 1200 USD.
So I can't work really to earn real money. Not the peanuts I earn now being underemployed with my short online part time job. But I also cannot (which Is more important) travel to South America and fulfill my last important wish to CTB.
I researched this South America CTB method. I got positive feedbacks of people who done it. And the main author of PPEH, which I trust and I highly appreciate dearest in my heart. He recommends it as well.
WHY? Why I am ignored? People talk to me only if they want something of me. F### this world. Or they waste my time with useless talk. Nothing informative. Like NPCs.
