That's my question right there! Probably asked myself that way more than any other. "How to disappear while killing myself in secret While making sure they never find my body WHILE trying for it to not hurt like hell". it's a tricky one
In the years of pondering I've come up with some looney tuney methods that I'm pretty sure would do, but I won't share them cos I'm a greedy selfish bitch.
No but really, like they said drowning hurts and A lot, specially in salty water which feels pretty much like fire through the lungs. You can first die THEN make sure your body sinks, via methods. Also hiding your body in land has its complications but it is doable. Forests can also be a good hiding place if you don't account for the mythical creature of "The One Hiker Who was Hiking by" that always seems to find the body in the most remote place in all the true crime docs. But there are ways to bury yourself. You just gotta get witty.
Being honest the one reason I don't want to share them outright (and might be in contradiction to some of this site's tenants but...) is that I don't want to carry the guilt of being responsible for someone's suicide. To give them the idea, specially if it could have been avoided in time or was a bad move on their part.
I don't mind talking to you about these and even sharing them but I would also appreciate if you could share what has brought you to that point. Which I'm sorry by the way that it has. If this feels or sounds like blackmail or smth you can blow me off, I'd just feel better if I knew it's not an 18 yo that wants to die cos their partner left them if you know what I mean.
In any way lots of hugs at ya <3