How to deal with the impulse to cut everyone off?

[amomentspeace]

If I do it, it will be the last nail in my coffin, meaning that i will for sure CTB, and I'm currently trying my best to fight it. I don't understand where this desire comes from and how to deal with it. I'm clueless

 

[imtiredasf]

I feel you. It's a pretty common thing for me to start to isolate myself when I start thinking about ctb. I think it's because it will hurt others less, or they won't stop me, or whatever. As far as stopping it goes, I signed up here. I try to reach out and send dumb memes and shit to people rather they respond or not. At least I'm doing my best to not isolate, right?

 

[LostLily]

Part of me wants to but I have a feeling that might send out more red flags..

 

[getoutgirl]

I did that :D and I almost died
so don't
or try not to
Like the person above said the desire in part comes from wanting to spare others the pain, or cos you are too tired to keep up appearances, or cos you want to wallow in misery alone, cut off from those walking-talking reminders of reality. In general there might not be a concrete reason its just a strategy of that part of your brain that wants to destroy you to end to protect you from the pain, it's a step closer to that and you both know it. It's like giving in to that general urge with small easier steps. That one being a particurarly alluring one.
but if you can, don't
keep fighting
An incredibly dumb way to fight it is to just... give up rationalizing it really. Don't look for excuses or reasons or anything just when the thought comes shuhs it. Cap its ass mentally as soon as it steps a foot in your brain. I did that too with the suicidal ones. Don't even let your brain finish the sentence. It's supressing, sure, but it works sometimes and it allows for less of that and an easier fight.
If you rationalize something, let it be the positive aspects of socialising only. The things you like to do with friends or gals or gals or gals or gals i know you like gals or people in general. Focus on that. Important to accept you wont always be able to so and that these awful thoughts will creep in, it's mostly about having the tools to deal with them the most ammount of times.
there are good things going on in your life, sucks you have to deal with this shit in your head while it. Keep up that fight and take it as easy as you can whenever posible <3

 

[amomentspeace]

I feel you. It's a pretty common thing for me to start to isolate myself when I start thinking about ctb. I think it's because it will hurt others less, or they won't stop me, or whatever. As far as stopping it goes, I signed up here. I try to reach out and send dumb memes and shit to people rather they respond or not. At least I'm doing my best to not isolate, right?

omg shodan im a big fan

An incredibly dumb way to fight it is to just... give up rationalizing it really. Don't look for excuses or reasons or anything just when the thought comes shuhs it. Cap its ass mentally as soon as it steps a foot in your brain. I did that too with the suicidal ones. Don't even let your brain finish the sentence. It's supressing, sure, but it works sometimes and it allows for less of that and an easier fight.

It's something I try to do, unfortunately god cursed me with the inability to stop thinking thoughts especially now when i cant distract myself with stuff because i have to study and work. It is what it is ig i just gotta keep fighting

 

[montanatype]

It happens to me every day, even when something doesn't go the way I want, and I also have the feeling and need to isolate myself. But I know that's worse, but it's not like things are going very well for me or I'm getting enough dopamine or having enough willpower to continue, but I know that if EVERYTHING ends for me, I'm going to be driven to CTB in one way or another, I don't want my "happiness" to end, but at the same time that "happiness" is so empty and hollow that it makes me want to throw everything away,

and no, I am not happy, if I knew how to be happy I would not have these horrible thoughts and I would not be so schizoid in each of my actions

 

[getoutgirl]

It's something I try to do, unfortunately god cursed me with the inability to stop thinking thoughts especially now when i cant distract myself with stuff because i have to study and work. It is what it is ig i just gotta keep fighting

I don't think it's such an unique curse, it's rather the common thing, specially if the thoughts are of suicide, those are loudest. It can get easier to ignore, work more times, with time and if the stuation around you improves too too. But yep, it's a fight, you go at it.
play some system shock in between your working and studying or distract yourself a bit when you can :)

 

[BlueLock]

Distract yourself until you calm down. Your emotions right now are valid however your judgement may not be, idk maybe remind yourself that you can cut people out of your life later so you don't have do it right now in this very moment.

 

[Average Joe]

If I do it, it will be the last nail in my coffin, meaning that i will for sure CTB, and I'm currently trying my best to fight it. I don't understand where this desire comes from and how to deal with it. I'm clueless

This desire comes from the first half of the sentence my friend.
Your desire to cut people off is because you know that it will make suicide easier.

There's lots of different ways to manage impulses and urges. @Dot & @rainwillneverstop created this resource, it's based on dealing with crisis regarding anxiety and being overwhelmed emotionally but it might be worth a try when you have the urge or impulses to cut people off.

Sending hugs,
Joe

 

[Dot]

This desire comes from the first half of the sentence my friend.
Your desire to cut people off is because you know that it will make suicide easier.

There's lots of different ways to manage impulses and urges. @Dot & @rainwillneverstop created this resource, it's based on dealing with crisis regarding anxiety and being overwhelmed emotionally but it might be worth a try when you have the urge or impulses to cut people off.

Sending hugs,
Joe

'Crisis' Resources for anxiety attacks and emotional overwhelm

Written by @Dot, I am just being the voice so more people can understand it. Okay, so you are having an anxiety episode. It is worth remembering when suffering anxiety attack, that you are safe, despite your body throwing out symptoms and telling you otherwise. We have compiled a list of...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[GeminiButter]

If I do it, it will be the last nail in my coffin, meaning that i will for sure CTB, and I'm currently trying my best to fight it. I don't understand where this desire comes from and how to deal with it. I'm clueless

Well done for trying your best to fight it I've been doing this for months and months and very recently it's gotten a lot worse, I've been avoiding messages and calls and keeping my phone off and have stopped relying to my care coordinator and stuff, I don't want to speak to people because I don't want to lie to them but I don't want to tell them that I'm making plans to CTB and just have to wait for my stuff to arrive.

the desire to isolate yourself can come from lots of things, for me it includes just not having the energy to be around people at all, never mind be social or talkative or stuff like that, it also happens when I don't want to lie to people (even though not telling someone something isn't lying, but it feels that way to me sometimes). Well done for trying to fight it and for reaching out here too

 

[RoseGirl]

honestly I cut everyone off like every other week and that's not enough for me to CTB, maybe because i still live with father lol...

 

[Average Joe]

'Crisis' Resources for anxiety attacks and emotional overwhelm

Written by @Dot, I am just being the voice so more people can understand it. Okay, so you are having an anxiety episode. It is worth remembering when suffering anxiety attack, that you are safe, despite your body throwing out symptoms and telling you otherwise. We have compiled a list of...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Ty for sharing! I completely forgot the link. Not sure how I forgot about something while doing that very thing.