Help How to ctb?

[thursday's child]

Hello! First, I would like to say that I'm in the US. I see a lot of people on here talking about SN and I have only been here for a short while so I still have a lot to learn, it seems pretty difficult to obtain based on what others are saying. Money is not an issue for me when it comes to buying drugs. I'm more worried about how that will get to my house. Needles terrify me so anything like injections wouldn't be preferable unless I'm extremely dissociated at that time. I also just don't trust myself to do that safely. Inert gas also seems too big to be discreet for me as I'd have to carry it through the entire house (I live with my grandmother and my uncle) and they'd likely get curious about it and so on. Gas also seems like too much of a hassle compared to ingesting something. Admittedly, I have not done a lot of research on gas so it could be my first impression getting in the way. I don't mind PMs!

P.S. It's pretty late right now so I'm sorry for any grammar errors my brain jumbled up on...

 

[blacksand]

Inert gas is a gift from god. It's literally the perfect suicide method.

 

[FuneralCry]

There isn't really any straightforward way to leave in this anti-suicide society unfortunately as suicide isn't accepted as a valid option. But there is information about methods listed in the suicide resource complination, but to me all the methods are either risky, inaccessible or just horrible/incredibly difficult to go through with, it's the unfortunate reality. I wish you the best with your plans.