How to accept that it will never become better

[lkjhgfdsa1]

the problems I have are really unsolvable.
I don't want to go in detail, that's just how it is. there is no escape anymore, but that is honestly all I want

there used to be in a spark in me that really wanted to live, but it is completely gone. I want this suffering to be over, but it is hard to accept my wasted potential and let go of my existence.

how did you come to terms with it? I wish I could receive some support

 

[worthIess]

i just accepted that the suffering is not worth it. life is just not for me. i need to/will commit suicide

 

[lazyeye]

For some people, things just don't get better. I have thought that for a long time, and I'm okay with it. For some people, things do get better, and I'm so happy for them. But that's not the case with me. And that's okay. I too used to have light within me. That light is gone. And that's okay. It's all okay. It is okay to not want to suffer any longer. I hope you find your peace.

 

[Linda]

the problems I have are really unsolvable.
I don't want to go in detail, that's just how it is. there is no escape anymore, but that is honestly all I want

there used to be in a spark in me that really wanted to live, but it is completely gone. I want this suffering to be over, but it is hard to accept my wasted potential and let go of my existence.

how did you come to terms with it? I wish I could receive some support

What is in the past is irrelevant to today and to your future (if you have a future). So it's best just to forget about it. Let it go. Worrying about "wasted potential" and things like that doesn't do any good. You start from where you are now.
If you are certain that your problems are (1) permanent; and (2) that they don't have a solution; and (3) that they are serious enough that they make your life not worth living, then there is an obvious way forward. But I would suggest that you give some thought to all three of those before you decide to ctb.
You haven't said anything on this forum about the nature of your problems. That's OK, if you want to keep them private. But it does make it difficult for people here to give you advice or support that might be helpful. Whatever your problems, you won't be the first person to face them, and you can be sure that some of the people here will have faced them (or something similar) too. There is a lot of experience on this site that you could draw on if you want to.

 

[acephale]

I accepted that the conventional "better" is meaningless to me

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

I can't get better ever. I have to kill myself as a result. I don't know if that helps. Some things just do not have the capacity to get better. I understand this profoundly.

 

[rotciv]

For some people, things just don't get better. I have thought that for a long time, and I'm okay with it. For some people, things do get better, and I'm so happy for them. But that's not the case with me. And that's okay. I too used to have light within me. That light is gone. And that's okay. It's all okay. It is okay to not want to suffer any longer. I hope you find your peace.

Share the same opinion.

 

[iloverachel]

I just lay down and rot

 

[Meteora]

I accepted that the conventional "better" is meaningless to me

Guess that's very wise.

 

[halleyscomet]

The way that I see it is everyone has their own definition of health and getting better. For some, their idea of success is completing a degree, while for me a successful day is managing to brush my teeth twice. It may seem silly, but progress is progress. Others do not have the same struggles that you do, I know it's hard but comparing yourself to other people is pointless. As long as you are trying, you should be proud of yourself.

 

[diadem99]

By deluding yourself into thinking that it will get better. Hold onto the hope, and don't let it go. Sounds counterproductive, but the alternative of rotting away until your physical existence matches your mental existence is worse.