Discussion How should someone spend their final day(s)?

[democritusjunior]

I've always wanted to kill myself on a high note. That was going to be in a few hours from now (I made myself steak and everything) but I would like the circumstances to be a little different. I've pretty much told my only real friend to fuck off, partially out of sincere hurt but also hope that their mild resentment might ease any pain elicited by my going. I've just been ignoring everyone else, because I know she'll be at anything I'm invited to—awkward. I was also thinking of purchasing a book on Gnosticism and maybe the various books of the dead from different world religions, just in preparation for the worst-case scenario; i.e., the afterlife.

In the words of Emil Cioran: "It is not worth the bother of killing yourself, since you always kill yourself too late."

 

[Ben 111]

Its never too late to kill urself ..what about the inevitable future suffering

 

[democritusjunior]

Its never too late to kill urself ..what about the inevitable future suffering

I wrote a post about that:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/some-thoughts-on-suicide-and-epistemology.249430/

 

[Ben 111]

I think we should have a plan b4 death... Don't go to that light...enter the void

I've always wanted to kill myself on a high note. That was going to be in a few hours from now (I made myself steak and everything) but I would like the circumstances to be a little different. I've pretty much told my only real friend to fuck off, partially out of sincere hurt but also hope that their mild resentment might ease any pain elicited by my going. I've just been ignoring everyone else, because I know she'll be at anything I'm invited to—awkward. I was also thinking of purchasing a book on Gnosticism and maybe the various books of the dead from different world religions, just in preparation for the worst-case scenario; i.e., the afterlife.

In the words of Emil Cioran: "It is not worth the bother of killing yourself, since you always kill yourself too late.

 

[The Eternal One]

I think we should have a plan b4 death... Don't go to that light...enter the void

That's true. "Light and love" is a lie, false god. The Void is our real Home.

 

[Musiclover338]

That's true. "Light and love" is a lie, false god. The Void is our real Home.

I think the light would just be reincarnating as a baby again, that wouldnt be too bad... you get another chance to maybe have a happy life next time.

its a reset memory wipe from what i think.

 

[satanisyourmaster]

There will be discomfort. You will reconsider even if you feel certain. There will be a level of certainty, even if you feel you're in charge. You will not avenge anyone, or anything. I seriously hope you will consider, cause YOU will be the change.

 

[The Eternal One]

I think the light would just be reincarnating as a baby again, that wouldnt be too bad... you get another chance to maybe have a happy life next time.

its a reset memory wipe from what i think.

Or you can end up a Vietnamese rice farmer with no legs, kek.



Reincarnation cycle IS hell, fullstop.
I'm no gambler. Personally, I'm done with rolling the dice, playing this game. I'm leaving the table entirely and going Home.

 

[Musiclover338]

Or you can end up a Vietnamese rice farmer with no legs, kek.

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Reincarnation cycle IS hell, fullstop.
I'm no gambler. Personally, I'm done with rolling the dice, playing this game. I'm leaving the table entirely and going Home.

LOL this made me chuckle, i needed that laugh thanks...

 

[The Eternal One]

LOL this made me chuckle, i needed that laugh thanks...

I'm so happy to hear that! I love making people laugh.
The pleasure was mine, thank you. <3

 

[HNR_]

Eating and drinking stuff I want since it doesn't matter anyway, makes me feel closer to my goal as well, as weird as it sounds

Before March, I ate healthier snacks, only had a couple cans of soda for a couple weeks but since then I pretty much let loose, I'm still restricting myself to an extent but not for health related reasons lol

A few days prior to my last one though, well, I'll make sure I didn't mess up the time for my trains and live like I have since March, not much else I can chance when you don't live alone and don't want to raise any suspicions
I already described the last things I'll do right before I CTB so I won't repeat myself here lol

 

[violetforever]

In the words of Emil Cioran: "It is not worth the bother of killing yourself, since you always kill yourself too late."

i love that. how true. i know for me its so much later than it should have been.

 

[Ben 111]

What about preventing future suffering

 

[100memoryleaks]

Eating and drinking stuff I want since it doesn't matter anyway, makes me feel closer to my goal as well, as weird as it sounds

Before March, I ate healthier snacks, only had a couple cans of soda for a couple weeks but since then I pretty much let loose, I'm still restricting myself to an extent but not for health related reasons lol

A few days prior to my last one though, well, I'll make sure I didn't mess up the time for my trains and live like I have since March, not much else I can chance when you don't live alone and don't want to raise any suspicions
I already described the last things I'll do right before I CTB so I won't repeat myself here lol

lol i feel this. lately i've been eating a lot of stuff i used to restrict since it doesn't matter anymore to me. but then the guilt started to hit me so i guess i'm back to restricting partially just so the inner voices stay quiet again

 

[HNR_]

lol i feel this. lately i've been eating a lot of stuff i used to restrict since it doesn't matter anymore to me. but then the guilt started to hit me so i guess i'm back to restricting partially just so the inner voices stay quiet again

Oh, it's not even due to guilt in my case but something much more trivial
If I get too used to eating/drinking one thing, I feel like it has less taste than if I space it out for a few days, if that makes sense

Sorry to hear that you have to endure that though, hope it those voices stop bothering you

 

[100memoryleaks]

Oh, it's not even due to guilt in my case but something much more trivial
If I get too used to eating/drinking one thing, I feel like it has less taste than if I space it out for a few days, if that makes sense

Sorry to hear that you have to endure that though, hope it those voices stop bothering you

that's actually so valid

 

[flowersforalgernons]

Or you can end up a Vietnamese rice farmer with no legs, kek.

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Reincarnation cycle IS hell, fullstop.
I'm no gambler. Personally, I'm done with rolling the dice, playing this game. I'm leaving the table entirely and going Home.

thanks this f*cking meme made me laugh out loud for the first time in like, weeks.

i'm ready to farm bruh

 

[The Eternal One]

thanks this f*cking meme made me laugh out loud for the first time in like, weeks.

i'm ready to farm bruh

Happy to hear this, dude! I love this meme, glad it made you laugh, as well.

 

[TAW122]

I am not sure how I would exactly spend my last days except for making sure I have what I need to prepare, already prepared and ready, maybe relax a bit and tie loose ends before I go. Ultimately, above all else, I am simply going to focus on my attempt and do everything to ensure that I succeed (as it's the most critical and important act that I will ever do - and depending on method (in my case, the firearm), I only have one chance to get it right.) I also don't have a date, time, or location, but as I am getting closer I will have a good idea of approximate date or time. I just don't have a definitive time, date, because I don't want to just lock myself/set an exact deadline when I'm not fully ready or feel pressured, so I'm somewhat open-ended, but approximate (like a general timeframe, give or take a day or few, but also dependent on circumstance too).

 

[Live_Life55]

I am not sure how I would exactly spend my last days except for making sure I have what I need to prepare, already prepared and ready, maybe relax a bit and tie loose ends before I go. Ultimately, above all else, I am simply going to focus on my attempt and do everything to ensure that I succeed (as it's the most critical and important act that I will ever do - and depending on method (in my case, the firearm), I only have one chance to get it right.) I also don't have a date, time, or location, but as I am getting closer I will have a good idea of approximate date or time. I just don't have a definitive time, date, because I don't want to just lock myself/set an exact deadline when I'm not fully ready or feel pressured, so I'm somewhat open-ended, but approximate (like a general timeframe, give or take a day or few, but also dependent on circumstance too).

What gun? And are you aiming for brain stem?