democritusjunior
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- Apr 21, 2026
- 17
I've always wanted to kill myself on a high note. That was going to be in a few hours from now (I made myself steak and everything) but I would like the circumstances to be a little different. I've pretty much told my only real friend to fuck off, partially out of sincere hurt but also hope that their mild resentment might ease any pain elicited by my going. I've just been ignoring everyone else, because I know she'll be at anything I'm invited to—awkward. I was also thinking of purchasing a book on Gnosticism and maybe the various books of the dead from different world religions, just in preparation for the worst-case scenario; i.e., the afterlife.
In the words of Emil Cioran: "It is not worth the bother of killing yourself, since you always kill yourself too late."
In the words of Emil Cioran: "It is not worth the bother of killing yourself, since you always kill yourself too late."