50 times. Wow... Did you just try or were they attempts?
Attempts, partial suspension. I'd put the rope around my neck, tie it, say my last words, put on some music, lean in different positions, and yet not be able to pass out. It's kind of scary in a way, makes me fear that I'll never be able to die. I hate it.
The closest point to fainting I have come was when I was a kid and on my knees and suddenly a doctor stabbed my foot to give a local anesthesia and then he burned my foot and the anesthesia did nothing. The pain was so unbelieavble that I almost fainted. My vision went literally black and white, I couldn't see colors, I could hardly see anything, everything was a blur of white, grey, and black, and I could barely hear anything.
But with partial hanging, sometimes I get nothing, and sometimes I get the "dizzy vision". But most attempts I get nothing, only sometimes I get the dizzy vision, but even then I can't faint.
I don't know what my neck is made of. I can't faint, but at least the hanging doesn't feel painful (unless the rope is bad and I don't have a scarf).
I've attempted full suspension once, and it failed because my feet touched the ground though only barely. I've tried it iirc twice more, but I was too scared to get off the chair.
Can you describe how it felt, like was your neck sore or?
I've went through full suspension once. I tried to do it twice more, but I was too scared to get off the chair.
It did feel sore, but not too sore, but it's good to wear a scarf or a towel when doing it. I used both. Because otherwise it can leave marks and hurt a lot. Even in partial I always use a towel or scarf because otherwise it can hurt depending on what kind of rope (or tie etc.) you use. After you attempt it and if you fail, wear a scarf, because your neck might be red. With partial attempts I'd sometimes get markings on my neck but sometimes it would be clean.
If you have the rope for a long time really tightly around the neck, you might get the "I still have a rope around my neck" feeling hours after you take it off. The "I still have a rope" feeling doesn't hurt physically but mentally it's really painful.
I think the worst thing about full suspension is finding a good spot. It's really hard to find a spot that is high enough but can still hold your weight. I used a hanging bar and if it had been just five centimeters higher, I might not be here today.