How old were you when you had your first suicidal thoughts?

[Mizzmini45]

Early teens I'd guess. 3 attempts since then. If and when the 4th attempt happens it'll be my last because I'll make sure this time.

Just curious if you don't mind- what were your attempts and what will your fourth one be?

 

[Malletboy]

I was 18 but never really took it serious until I returned home from school to a toxic family when I was 19. I remember walking alongside a freeway and something deep down telling me to just run in front of some of the cars flying by. It took everything in me to resist the urge

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Just curious if you don't mind- what were your attempts and what will your fourth one be?

2 serious hanging attempts that almost succeeded and I nearly went the Kurt method. Couldn't pull the trigger though. SN is a godsend and will give me deliverance one day.

 

[garcelle]

12. thought i was happy and had friends

 

[Mizzmini45]

2 serious hanging attempts that almost succeeded and I nearly went the Kurt method. Couldn't pull the trigger though. SN is a godsend and will give me deliverance one day.

You don't have to go into to much detail but how did hanging fail you? Wrong spot, found?

 

[Pepper]

First suicidal thought? Six years old. The attempts started nine-10 years later; 15-16 years old. Total attempts: 11.

 

[Oppenheimer]

Oh god is it really like this?! I can't deal with this my whole life. I'm out asap

Yes, it is like this. Sorry.

 

[NoThanks2000]

14.

 

[Squiddy]

14 when I was getting severely bullied in middle school

 

[pilotmetal00]

At age 7 I tried to violently kill myself.

 

[Marz]

11 or 12, can't remember properly.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Around 33 I think
Feeling like an imposter here a lil bit
You are all had it at such young age

 

[PaYo]

i think 20. like 9 years ago

 

[CalmStrikeofMercy]

14.

 

[ForbiddenSiren]

14

 

[true faith]

I made attempts at suicide multiple times between the ages of 11 & 13, so I figure my first ideations had to have been when I was 10. I don't really remember though.

 

[Azzy69]

12

 

[ForNow]

Early to mid-teens. Was around the time my family started regularly taking their pent-up rage out on me. It seemed like a way to stop the pain I felt inside (being hated so much). What I lacked was the knowledge and resources. But then I discovered cutting and that fended off the beast for some time, even as it caused new problems for me. I don't recommend it.

 

[56709]

I was 8 when I first considered suicide and 10 when I made my first serious attempts.
At the time I simply thought of it as an escape from tumultuous conditions and emotional pain... I also fantasized about being with my deceased relatives in the afterlife.

 

[dustintech]

20 for me. 39 now with three failed attempts and multiple hospitalizations. My will to live has long gone and I'm sure I'll attempt again soon.

 

[Taki]

12

 

[pole]

when i was 13. 7 years later, still the same. been so use to sadness, it just follows me now, everywhere i go.

i think if it starts at a very young age, it just sticks with you and changes you're thought process forever.

 

[TAW122]

I would say the thought and idea of suicide came sometime around age 12, when the pain in life was great (bullying, shitty homelife, and hitting puberty as well as knowing how shit life really is or is to come). I had the concept of death probably younger, like sometime around age 6-7.

 

[GrizzlyGrapefruit]

17 when I had my first thoughts of killing myself. It was strange because I wasn't really expecting it to be (or at least seem) out of my control.

I didn't seriously start taking these thoughts seriously until last year at 20 though. 21 now and will be surprised if I make it to 22 at this rate. Giving life everything I've got in a last ditch effort to make things better. If it works great, if not, I can die more easily knowing I gave it everything. But honestly, things will probably be determined this January. We shall see

 

[WhyIsLife56]

When I was in elementary school. I don't remember the age though. I just remember that I wanted to stop living.

 

[Meant2Die]

When I was a kid, well under 10, I very specifically remember thinking "well if things get too hard, I'll just OFF myself".. what kid thinks that? Sad how that's coming to pass soon.

 

[Taki]

17 when I had my first thoughts of killing myself. It was strange because I wasn't really expecting it to be (or at least seem) out of my control.

I didn't seriously start taking these thoughts seriously until last year at 20 though. 21 now and will be surprised if I make it to 22 at this rate. Giving life everything I've got in a last ditch effort to make things better. If it works great, if not, I can die more easily knowing I gave it everything. But honestly, things will probably be determined this January. We shall see

What's significant about January?

 

[WhyIsLife56]

I also remember my mom telling me that I had a hard time coming out of the womb.

 

[lowres]

I felt melancholy feelings of unrest existing at the age of 7 but my first conscious "I wish my life would cease" thought was at the age of 12 and due to incessant bullying

 

[starshotplagues]

13 :(