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BlackBlood6

BlackBlood6

Member
Dec 7, 2023
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30. I feel like i'm 12 years old thanks to mental illness. I have a baby face too that just adds to the irony.
 
MidnightCat

MidnightCat

Still 3 more lives to go.
Jan 1, 2023
318
31.

Never planned to live for that long. Always thought I'd be part of the 27s club.
 
Hysteria

Hysteria

Feeling Trapped
Jan 8, 2024
120
I'm 29, and thus, I accept my death will contribute to the research statistics of young adult suicides everyone is writing about these days.
 
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NightingaleOde

Member
Jan 22, 2024
22
60...right there w you, fellow old.timer Ligottian 😉
I guess there's no universal time line for having had enough, huh?
Oh man, that's rough. Hugs, youngster.
I'm 22 as well, I've been stuck here for 22 years too long, it's such a long time.
I've seen your posts, I'm sorry you're in so much pain.
 
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silence ends

Student
Jan 10, 2023
121
35 this year, propably not gonna make it so far though.

If, i could go back 15 years with even some of the knowledge i got now, i believe i could turn life into better direction but not sure would that stop from ctb afterall. First "try" into the bus was around 18yo and first serious, planned try was 26yo.

Tried to get better but in my situation 30+ is too late to improve life quality significally.

I strongly encourage young ppl around 18, 20, at the beginning of their adulthood to try their best before totally losing hope and focusing ctb . Therapy, meds, "goin' out of the comfort zone", meditation, heck even try psychedelics or so on. You still got time. 10 years goes fast, in good and bad.
But i also totally understand that some times there's actually is no hope in reality even that youre young. Just make sure that is really really reality and not just your feeling before staying in the depths of ctb thoughts, planning and eventually giving up your life totally.
 
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leloyon

leloyon

I'll see you in the Wired.
Feb 4, 2023
1,692
Eighteen, nineteen soon.
 
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dying flower

Member
Jan 6, 2024
74
Been stuck on this rock 66 years and 7 months
 
Yaka

Yaka

Member
Jan 23, 2024
53
18 turning 19 soon and will not see 20
 
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SeaBreeze

SeaBreeze

Suicideation?
Jul 11, 2023
146
16,000 days old today!
Started counting 43 years ago
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,711
23 now, I really have been trapped in this existence for such an incredibly long time. But I still don't understand how this thread is relevant to suicide discussions, people wish for death no matter the age, wanting to die has nothing to do with age. Also it's tiresome how people use threads like this to be all patronizing and pro-life even know people come here to escape from that kind of toxic positivity. Existence itself is the problem anyway rather than the wish to be permanently free from it, to have the ability to exist will always be very undesirable.
 
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everyonesaniki

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Jan 27, 2024
22
Turned 29 a few weeks ago and what happened around my birthday pretty much pushed me over the edge from just contemplating suicide to actively planning it.
 
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