Discussion How often are you depressed?

[Rocinante]

I'd say about 1 in every 3 days might be a good one. Other times there will be an entire week or more I'm depressed, then I'll go a few days feeling fine. Hard to describe it properly. It is like a cycle for me where I feel terrible, then instantly back to feeling fine.

Often when it happens I won't leave my room/home unless it's in the late evening, so I can keep interactions minimal. The worst part though, besides feeling miserable, is it is hard for me to manage my time. I'll usually do one thing and neglect everything else since it helps me cope better, but after the depression is over I feel guilty I didn't put enough time into my projects.

 

[Zegers]

I dont feel usually okay, mainly depressed or in apathy.

 

[cgrtt.brns]

honestly constantly. i cant remember the last time i felt happy or content without relying on drugs. depressed has been my baseline state of emotion for years.

 

[BurgundySnap]

Hello, I think depression is a constant state for me.
Perhaps the words are better said as anhedonic or listless, however. I do not have energy to try to fake happiness for more than a few hours each day.

 

[StolenLife]

I'm usually just comfortably numb, I get really depressed only if I stop taking my meds.

 

[CH349]

I'd say about 1 in every 3 days might be a good one. Other times there will be an entire week or more I'm depressed, then I'll go a few days feeling fine. Hard to describe it properly. It is like a cycle for me where I feel terrible, then instantly back to feeling fine.

Often when it happens I won't leave my room/home unless it's in the late evening, so I can keep interactions minimal. The worst part though, besides feeling miserable, is it is hard for me to manage my time. I'll usually do one thing and neglect everything else since it helps me cope better, but after the depression is over I feel guilty I didn't put enough time into my projects.

It's hard for me to feel not depressed. If I don't constantly distract myself somehow it gets really bad.

 

[Whistea]

Being depressed is my default state. Some days are better than others, some are worse, but I can't really escape it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm just tired of existing overall and I prefer the sound of eternal sleep. Existence is just something completely unappealing to me and I would never label that as "depression", instead it's just a valid way to feel, existence was never something beneficial or desirable in the first place.

 

[somenone]

Every day, even if it goes normal, I can stall like a plane at night, because my mind cant forget. Sometimes, I think, i only one in the world who feels this.

 

[outatime_85]

I was told constantly growing up that I was not allowed to be sad or depressed, so that became my default setting.

I walk around happy even though I am sad and mentally exhausted.

That said, 365 depression is all day, every day; it doesn't close.

Constant auditory hallucinations, nightmares, and thinking of ways to self-annihilate myself, and no one around me cares; no one around me wants to hear about or see it (the sadness, the misery), so a happy mask gets used.

Those around me will only notice when I finally pull my chips off the table and annihilate myself, and even then they will say it was my fault, not how I was raised.

 

[foreverfalling]

It's my baseline state. I'm constantly sighing at home, because I'm always in a lonely mental anguish. I keep imagining someone being there to comfort me and take the pain away, but I fall deeper because I know no such person has ever or would ever exist in my life.

 

[purple_keeper]

for me it's usually that i feel depressed at night while trying to sleep and then feel "head empty" when i wake up in the morning about go about my day

 

[Sapphire]

I am always depressed.

 

[TheNihilisticViking]

Almost everyday, although I occasionally get a break from it, but yeah, almost everyday.

 

[Brown-Jacket Revy]

The real question is, when am I not?

Perpetual depression since 2000.

 

[leloyon]

Being depressed is my default state. Some days are better than others, some are worse, but I can't really escape it.

Pretty much this.

 

[brokeandbroken]

I'd say about 1 in every 3 days might be a good one. Other times there will be an entire week or more I'm depressed, then I'll go a few days feeling fine. Hard to describe it properly. It is like a cycle for me where I feel terrible, then instantly back to feeling fine.

Often when it happens I won't leave my room/home unless it's in the late evening, so I can keep interactions minimal. The worst part though, besides feeling miserable, is it is hard for me to manage my time. I'll usually do one thing and neglect everything else since it helps me cope better, but after the depression is over I feel guilty I didn't put enough time into my projects.

I don't have good days. Just bad days or horrendous days. I can't remember the last time I felt joy or happiness of any kind. Just anger, sadness, and despair...

 

[oneeyed]

The real question is, when am I not?

Perpetual depression since 2000.

Hey! Same here. *high fives*

 

[Costrecce]

Always? 8 years straight. I don't know, most of the time I'm empty and just go through the feelings. I still smile and laugh, but the sadness, anger, and suicidal thoughts are always going in the mind and body. Especially with people in real life, I socialize and smile at them, but after the conversation, I feel like the biggest monster and failure in the world.

 

[ayaneechan]

Everyday, my life is a mess

Have literally no happiness since long, so without this it's probably ever hard to get out depression

 

[Stormy Raine]

I was diagnosed with dysthymia so I'm always depressed but functional. I don't take medication because I refused it. I have no desire to go out the house unless I have to. I'm so use to being sad and depressed I don't really think about it anymore.

 

[enough of this]

I'm just tired of existing overall and I prefer the sound of eternal sleep. Existence is just something completely unappealing to me and I would never label that as "depression", instead it's just a valid way to feel, existence was never something beneficial or desirable in the first place.

 

[sothisisgoodbye]

Some days I'm able to function without even having to think about suicide once, but with college and everything all the pressure just keeps mounting and CTB ends up being the only thing I can focus on.