Help How much rope is needed to hang from a tree and is this rope good?

[human123]

On August 31 I will do a full suspension hanging from a tree. i have this 35 foot rope. Is that long enough? and will it hold me? Im 5 foot 1 and am somewhere between 140 and 150 pounds. i will use a running bowling to get it in the tree from the ground as i cant climb trees and will bring a foldable stool to suspend myself. i will carry these and some other materials that are not important for this question in a large bookbag. i do not know the carry limit of this rope but i pulled on it and it seems strong and not elastic. will this sufise or should i buy a better rope?

 

[Hvergelmir]

I don't see anything wrong with the rope, though I think drop hanging is less painful. (See standard table of drops.)

That said, I want to remind you of your own words from 3 months ago:

In most ways, my life has gotten better, my self-esteem has improved, I no longer think im a bad person, I have new friends, I haven't run into that guy from 8th grade at all this semester, I'm more confident, and I have a clear goal for the future, i want to teach English in japan as an ALT. drowning in my depression. I fear regressing. I have bad thoughts, they never went away,even after 7 years. but I'm afraid to tell anyone because I fear going back to the mental hospital. But I also feel like no mater what I do, no matter what improvements I make, the thoughts won't go away. It's not like I don't feel happy though, I feel happy often.

You've barely tried adult life, and in my opinion you ought to try that first.
As a child one is very much at the mercy of family and school. As an adult you can tell people to just fuck off, and go to Japan (or whatever you want to do). While the trauma might keep reminding you of your past, it's still a significant difference. Trauma often fade gradually, over time.

 

[human123]

I don't see anything wrong with the rope, though I think drop hanging is less painful. (See standard table of drops.)

That said, I want to remind you of your own words from 3 months ago:

You've barely tried adult life, and in my opinion you ought to try that first.
As a child one is very much at the mercy of family and school. As an adult you can tell people to just fuck off, and go to Japan (or whatever you want to do). While the trauma might keep reminding you of your past, it's still a significant difference. Trauma often fade gradually, over time.

Im not sure how i can do drop hang from a tree in the forest. i was just thinking of stepping off the stool. oh and i actually did agree to work with my therapist this summer, who found out about my suicidality. i will really try to get better these 3 months before the date