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Interloper

Interloper

Jul 23, 2021
689
I don't want to see spring. I hope january brings record low temps to crush any leftover morale.
 
TheCyberian

TheCyberian

Swinging in Her Cell
Nov 13, 2022
81
I don't know anymore. I'm not currently suicidal, but I feel like I'm being pushed into a corner by life. I'm in danger of losing my job and by extension my apartment. Once that happens I'm going to kill myself--even if a part of me wants to keep going.
 
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dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
I don't know anymore. I'm not currently suicidal, but I feel like I'm being pushed into a corner by life. I'm in danger of losing my job and by extension my apartment. Once that happens I'm going to kill myself--even if a part of me wants to keep going.
Sight, I know what you mean....
 
autistocracy

autistocracy

angel
Dec 1, 2022
44
Depends on a lot of different factors that are up in air right now. Best case, 1 year. Worst case, 3 months.
 
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B4mbi

B4mbi

Melly
Nov 11, 2022
77
I should have gone last year when I was 19. I'm so annoyed at myself, I deserve at least to die young but now I've even ruined that. I wish I knew about SN back then, I want to take it as soon as it arrives
 
onedayitsmytime

onedayitsmytime

Member
Nov 27, 2022
14
2 months at the most.. Just
need the funds 🙃🙃
 
dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
I just can't decide, thank heaven old N still in the fridge.
 
TydalWave

TydalWave

Brutally Self-Aware
Sep 20, 2022
436
I don't know anymore. I'm not currently suicidal, but I feel like I'm being pushed into a corner by life. I'm in danger of losing my job and by extension my apartment. Once that happens I'm going to kill myself--even if a part of me wants to keep going.
Are you self-destructive with your life when suicidal? Like for me sometimes I feel like I just DC from my obligations when i am hard commited to CTB and then if and when I feel any better I will have to deal with all the shit I piled up.
 
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TheCyberian

TheCyberian

Swinging in Her Cell
Nov 13, 2022
81
Are you self-destructive with your life when suicidal? Like for me sometimes I feel like I just DC from my obligations when i am hard commited to CTB and then if and when I feel any better I will have to deal with all the shit I piled up.
Definitely. I gave away all my savings and just completely shirked my job duties after setting a firm CTB date and now I'm just totally fucked. I wouldn't be surprised if my past self did this intentionally so I'd go through with it.
 
TydalWave

TydalWave

Brutally Self-Aware
Sep 20, 2022
436
Definitely. I gave away all my savings and just completely shirked my job duties after setting a firm CTB date and now I'm just totally fucked. I wouldn't be surprised if my past self did this intentionally so I'd go through with it.
As someone who is actively in that past self-destructive phase, I can vouch for this.

Definitely intentional :devil:
 
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hopeless302

hopeless302

Student
Sep 11, 2022
127
depends a lot on how the next couple of weeks go. But I'd say a month or two, tops.
 
dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
As someone who is actively in that past self-destructive phase, I can vouch for this.

Definitely intentional :devil:
Just to let you two now that I'm in the same boat of dealing in past self-destructive actions.

I've ended my own saving and destroyed chances I had.

Intentionally, yes almost subconsciously mid subconsciously perhaps.
 
WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,430
Hopefully at the very most, until the end of December.
 
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Hurt

Paragon
Nov 13, 2020
905
I would probably do it impulsively. I don't think about how much time I have left.