Venting how much is me & how much is real

[convinifiction]

i feel like im faking everything
when my mood is low im just making in that way
when im having n anxiety attack im tricking my chest into being tight and tricking my breath into being shallow
when i cant get work done im just lazy
when my meds have terrible side effects im just making it up by being paranoid about them
exhaustion pain dizziness fear sadness panic fear resentment
are any of my problems even real am i just Making myself feel this way? why? because im used to it? because i dont want to be responsible for anything? because im just a bad person? because im manipulative? because im

 

[Mr.Ruben]

You could have a normal body reaction to unconsciously act in a certain way, very common with trauma but anything negative that when you where a child really.
example, dropped glass bottle, broke, will unconsciously be more careful with glass stupid example but it's about a similar range.

for laziness I would do the same, anything negative its just me being lazy, but since it had s many flaws Im mostly wrong.
and technically your problems are real, one of them could be what you are describing, a thought that what you are doing is not real, not your problem.
best of luck.