Discussion How many times have you attempted suicide?

[iDieUDie80]

I understand everyone may have a different definition of an "attempt", and may not be keeping perfect track, but respond to the poll to the best of your ability. And if you've attempted before, why did you not succeed in following through?

 

[Wayfaerer]

I have never attempted so I am going in blind. I only hope that my lack of experience doesn't keep me from doing what needs to be done.

 

[WillOxyWork]

I tried attempting once about 3 years ago with a high dose of seroquel and a trash bag. Definitely a poor method - passed out before I could even get the trash bag on

 

[InterstateFlowers]

I didn't succeed in following through my suicide attempts because I was super ignorant/stupid and didn't have many methods to choose from. The only methods I knew of at the time was hanging and gunshot and overdosing. I don't want my body to look gruesome for my family so gun was a no-go and there isn't anywhere to hang myself so I couldn't do that. So I went with overdosing and when I first attempted, I did no research at all and just swallowed as many otc pills as possible. All that happened was me vomiting really hard and being super nauseous the next few days in the hospital.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

Reasons for failing:

1. I'm chicken shit.
2. Kept thinking about people who would be sad.
3. As downtrodden as I feel, a small part of me still hopes that things will get better and I might love life again.

 

[Sinai Silence]

The reasons I've had for failing vary from not having great resources to go off, they were impulsive and I got caught in the process.

 

[Shinkansen]

I have tried twice:

1) 2 years ago I tried with partial suspension using a sheet tied to the bed, but I was unable to lose consciousness, I only felt neck pain;

2) last year I tried to hang myself with a scarf on a wooden construction in a playground, but the scarf broke before I lost consciousness and I fell on the ground.

I hope the third one will be the right time.

 

[thx1138]

I had 3 more serious "attempts", but unfortunately I'm still here.

1. Trying to drink myself to death. Really stupid, but probably the closest I got.
2. Trying to jump off a bridge but a man sneaked behind me and pulled me off.
3. Trying partial suspension & passing out then waking up again.

 

[sarahlouise]

Because I'm stupid and I thought just benzos and alcohol would kill me. I was even stupid enough to take 70ish parectamol and at my age I feel embarrassed how dumb I am tbh. At least I know better now thanks to ss.

 

[Jeff_The_Cursed]

I have never actually ATTEMPTED, I either decided "give life another chance", or was afraid the attempt might not be successful, and probably wouldn't have been without serious thought ahead of time.

 

[SnowWhite]

Chickened out of jumping once, SI kicked in when I attempted to carry out partial suspension hanging and fucked up SN so badly my mum found out.
In the process of giving life one more chance before hopefully succeeding

 

[GoneGoneGone]

And if you've attempted before, why did you not succeed in following through?

I've had what I consider only three major attempts:
- one was a combination of many benzos, Z drugs and a ton of pregabalin, but I woke up after a day. I was convinced the pregabalin would do it
- one was eating something that I know I'm deadly allergic to, and nothing happened. I know allergies come and go, but I bet that if I hadn't wanted to ctb, I would have, this is how lucky I am
- one was SN but I just freaked out after a couple of minutes and tried throwing up. I was not ready. I was doing it more bc I felt I needed to escape from my partner

 

[lotus11]

hmm I put zero but I have sat there with my sn in front of me a couple of times before sincerely wanting to drink more than a sip but SI has just been to strong, although surely the only thing stopping me, so it depends what you count as attempt i guess

 

[Ardesevent]

I've lost count. It's only been partial recently, but I've pretty much tried everything that's available to me at this point.

 

[Weightoftheworld]

Twice. They were both impulsive so they miserably failed. Third time's a charm.

 

[Mitokondrium]

Only one, 13 years ago when I was 18. I was on the top on a huge building and I cut my wrists and try to bleed out. Anyway, although at that time I thought it was a super serious attempt, the fact that I was not jumping (from like 40 meters) but decided to cut my veins instead clearly shows that I had second thoughts.

 

[Painless_end]

I chose 3-6 because I actually attempted partial that many times.

But the attempt was always abandoned after some few minutes or seconds.

I couldn't stand the pressure on my wind pipe. I was trying to constrict my carotid but it didn't work like that and I'm not sure it works like that at all.

 

[HappyMstake]

Only twice so far, but they say third times the charm so hopefully in the next two weeks I'll find out exactly how much truth there is to that saying.

 

[Kaugummi]

Went to the train tracks contemplaining many times.... But I wouldn't count those as an attempt.

My only real 'attempt' was partial hanging while I was sectioned in a psych ward. Eventually realized that my tools (Jeans on a heater) and setting (psych ward, high risk of someone walking in on me just dangling there) weren't ideal, so I stopped. The staff didn't even notice which, in hindsight, is kind of ridiculous.

 

[Deleted member 18655]

4. Fifth time's a charm...

 

[Squiddy]

I've never attempted and if I get the courage to, I hope it's my first and last time

 

[Nymph]

I have never fully attempted suicide yet but once I had really strong negative thoughts and wanted to die really bad I selfharmed on my throat.

 

[fluffysuicidalbear]

I've tried twice, both impulsive. Hopefully my third attempt is my last attempt.

 

[AllReturnsToNothing]

Just tried for the first time via hanging. Was just messing around seeing if I could pass out. Started to get light headed but chickened out before I was able to pass out.

 

[iDieUDie80]

Just tried for the first time via hanging. Was just messing around seeing if I could pass out. Started to get light headed but chickened out before I was able to pass out.

So it was a self aborted attempt. Partial, I'm assuming?

 

[AllReturnsToNothing]

So it was a self aborted attempt. Partial, I'm assuming?

Sort of, it was really half-assed to be honest. I basically just tied the end of the noose to my bed frame and leaned back in my chair. I guess I just needed comfirmation that I could do it instead of just thinking about doing and and not following through.

 

[inactive]

While I have felt decently suicidal many times throughout my life, I have never taken the step of attempting. I haven't felt ready and my major lack of impulsivity also contributes. I'm the type of person to think long and cautiously before acting.

I've developed a fear that because I'm not "armed" with previous suicide attempts, I will have a tougher time succeeding if/when the true time comes.

 

[checkouttime]

once, using insulin (im not diabetic). I had read a lot how dangerous it was .how you quickly go into a coma and can die with only small amounts, when i used to be into bodybuilding. It was out of date but looked ok and i thought it would work. just got in bed and expected never wake up and FML it didn't happen!

 

[TAW122]

I have never attempted (made an actual, serious attempt) because I know I would fail with many of the methods out there, especially without preparation and prior knowledge. Also, for the method that I choose (a firearm), I only have one shot (pun intended) both figuratively and literally to make it count so I can't mess up and risk living as a vegetable.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Made a partial attempt at 17, failed because of almost no planning and a very erratic mindset as well as terrible positioning.