Discussion How many times have you all attempted ? I never attempted it

[Journeytoletgo]

This will be my first attempt soon

 

[Largeletters]

Countless times.

 

[SufferingInSilence]

Four, give or take.

 

[SelmaJezkova10]

I don't remember, I think three or four

 

[DeathWish77]

I've overdosed on OTC pills numerous times to no avail. I actually took so much acetaminophen one night when I was 15 I'm surprised it didn't take me out or damage me. I threw up like 12-15 times the day after I took them. I've never tried SN but I'm about to and hope it will be the finality. I shouldn't have had to be alive and go through all this. Shoulda been gone at 15.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I've overdosed on OTC pills numerous times to no avail. I actually took so much acetaminophen one night when I was 15 I'm surprised it didn't take me out or damage me. I threw up like 12-15 times the day after I took them. I've never tried SN but I'm about to and hope it will be the finality. I shouldn't have had to be alive and go through all this. Shoulda been gone at 15.

Can I message you?

 

[Hurt]

Never. I'm scared of failing.

 

[motel rooms]

Never. I've stood on high bridges & looked down for a long time, that's all. I don't think of the times I took too many pills with too much alcohol & fantasized about not waking up as attempts, that would be silly

 

[squarecircles]

Never. I'm scared of failing.

Same here. No one in my life knows how close I am to ctb and I know the way they would react would just make me need to do it even more.

 

[Hurt]

Same here. No one in my life knows how close I am to cbt and I know the way they would react would just make me need to do it even more.

I think it would be a surprise to everyone. Few people know I'm suicidal.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I think it would be a surprise to everyone. Few people know I'm suicidal.

Same here people maybe know I'm awkward, shy, depressed but not suicidal because I would never want them to know and try to save me because I wish for an end not to be saved

 

[ConfusedAndWeird]

I've tried so many times I've lost track. I just don't have a lot of resources available to me so the methods I have… suck. I would probably be dead by now if I had N or SN or an exit bag. Preferably an exit bag because N or SN require haggling with doctors for anti-emetics and interacting with people to get something I want is the absolute most painful thing in the world for me, and is comparable to pulling teeth.

 

[DeathWish77]

Can I message you?

Sure

 

[whywere]

2 times. Walter

 

[Life_and_Death]

technically twice

 

[Im.so.tired]

3 times and i was so pissed everytime it failed.

 

[Bullit]

None. Yet. I will most likely go SN,and I hope like hell it works.

 

[ClownMe]

never attempted, SI always kicks in.

 

[FuneralCry]

I have never had an proper attempt, I did wrap a cord around my neck one time but I didn't really know what I was doing and SI stopped me. I will find a way out when I get desperate though. Fears of failure also stop me.

 

[Seiba]

One full attempt when I was a teenager, and a few times practicing partial with a scarf on a whim a year or so ago. I don't consider the latter an attempt.

 

[suicidesheep31]

I cannot count.

 

[Wakawaka]

4 or 5

 

[Eire1992]

Twice for me. I was a lot younger and frankly, naive. Number 3 will be before the end of July, pending some deliveries and I've gone all in this time around. 1 and 2 were unplanned and on impulse. Never with a mindset going into it that I truly wouldn't survive. I won't make that mistake a 3rd time.

 

[Pookie]

Once and I was almost successful. I would've joined the "27 club" except I'm not famous in the least. Wish I'd died back then because nothing could've prepared me for how infinitely worse my life would become.

 

[Largeletters]

Once and I was almost successful. I would've joined the "27 club" except I'm not famous in the least. Wish I'd died back then because nothing could've prepared me for how infinitely worse my life would become.

I'm so sorry for that :(

 

[Pookie]

I'm so sorry for that :(

Thank you for your kind words.

 

[Toonloon]

7

 

[FallenRose]

A couple of times when I was a teenager, I wasn't smart enough to know how to do it right and they were really impulsive.

 

[darthjacket]

Twice. My first was when I was 16, i overdosed on my grandmothers ambien. Ended up having my stomach pumped and sent to a psych ward.
Second time was last year at the height of the pandemic. I was in the basement at work and swallowed some klonopin with 8 Bacardi personals I brought in. Vomited in an uber I managed to call but made it home otherwise safe and sound.

... Pill ODs aren't fun

 

[sick.faery]

like maybe 4ish times